Been to the Physiatrist and I'm Still Very Busy

I saw the Physiatrist yesterday. He's the doctor who had to review my records before he would agree to even see me. As it turns out, oddly enough, he is the person who did my original EMG and Nerve Velocity Tests.

I was extremely pleased that he did a complete checkup, rather than just asking about my neck. He went through a complete neurological exam, but didn't venture much as to what he thought was wrong, other than to say Dr. Watts was the one who would be able to say what is going on. He did say he was sure I had some kind of Movement Disorder, but he didn't think it was Parkinson's, either.

He went over some options for the neck pain that has persisted since November. We agreed to try the least possible first, particularly since I will see Dr. Watts in less than three weeks. It's hard to imagine that something I've waited so long for is almost here! Anyway, the Physiatrist gave me a prescription for Lidoderm patches that I cut and apply to the trigger points of this pain. They are basically Novacaine that goes through the skin to the muscle. He felt like I would not have any stomach problems by doing it that way.

I put half on the top of my shoulder near the neck and the other half just below the shoulder blade, next to the spine. Those are the spots that really scream if I sit or stand unsupported for very long. Even the time to wash a full sink of dishes or eat a meal at the table is usually enough to set it off, and sitting on the church pews has been very uncomfortable.

I felt a little bit light headed soon after putting the patch on, but that could have been for any number of reasons, as I had not eaten breakfast yet. I am hurting now, but maybe not as bad as usual. Obviously, one day's use can't calm down this spasm, so I will just have to see how I do. The prescription is for 3 months worth, and thank goodness I have Medicare and good insurance, as it was listed at over $500!

I've been going around in circles lately trying to get a whole lot of things accomplished all at once, and not getting much finished at all. We have started on our taxes, but there are some parts that I must work on before the exact number can go in the form. I've been doing them with software for years, but this time my hubby sat down next to me and we went over each part together. That helped me stay calm, plus he needs to know how it's done.

I'm also trying really hard to get as many of our toys in our online catalog as I possibly can, and I have run into several road blocks I had not anticipated. I had to learn how to use a Shopping Cart program, upload and download files to Google and our ISP to make a searchable data base, and I have been driven half crazy trying to get the catalog to show up properly in Google Base. OK, I know if you are not using the programs yourself that was just a bunch of gobbledygook - but they were very confusing to me, too, and I am definitely not learning new things as quickly as I once did.

I've had printer problems and had to buy a new one yesterday, so I couldn't mail out some orders today, because I hadn't figured out how to set up the network part of it. That actually worked pretty well, once I did understand the directions, and it even has an answering machine and fax included in it! I feel like I have my own home office now.

Our Search Service is keeping me extremely busy, too, and we have made a few sales from it, as well as helping several very happy parents find the lovie they needed, whether we made the sale or someone else did. I am pretty much caught up with answering the initial request, but I am miserably behind at getting the ones I could not find turned into blog posts.

I feel bad about that, as some of these parents sound so desperate, but hubby is still computer phobic, and that leaves this part of the business entirely up to me. He's great at scouring the yard sales and thrift stores several times a week when he goes out on his own, and we thoroughly enjoy our Friday Date Day, and he helps a lot with the packing. He takes everything to the Post Office, too, and he has a lot of input about how to do the business side of selling. He just doesn't want anything to do with the computer part.

Well, enough about all that. It just goes to show that I am staying busy with lots of different parts of my life - and our messy house proves it. Something had to give - so.....


Hopefully it won't be so long before I post again.

CPAP Saga Continues

I recently read that something like 80% of all people with Parkinson's Disease have some kind of Sleep Disorder, so I'm in good company, eh? There's even a study in progress to see if using a CPAP machine will improve the cognitive abilities of PWP, particularly memory. That's something I'd love to see as a side effect of putting up with this thing!

Well, I haven't given up yet, but I also haven't gotten through a whole night with the CPAP machine on, either. I've been getting to sleep with it pretty well. But then my old insomnia habits take over, and I'm wide awake several hours later. I am finding it easier to get back to sleep the first time, but not when I wake up around 1:30 or 2:00AM. That's when I've been taking it off on most nights.

I've also had a vague nausea and a horrible bout of stomach bloating, particularly this weekend. Since this is already a problem related to the elimination difficulties I have, I treated it with that in mind, with no success. Then, just on a lark, I Googled for bloating and Cpap. To my surprise, I found that this is a common problem, as some people get air forced in their stomachs. The suggestion was given to use Gas-X, and after I did that I felt much better! It's a shame I didn't think to check that sooner, as I didn't go to Church this Sunday, as I just felt entirely too yucky.

Another thing I discovered quite on my own yesterday made a considerable comfort difference for me last night. There are Velcro adjustments at the forehead and around the back of the neck and under the ears for the attachment of the mask. I've been loosening and pulling on them for days, trying to get comfortable. I happened to notice, while the mask was off, that the harness was all twisted out of shape, with one side pulled tighter than the other. So, I undid them all and started from scratch, carefully tightening them up in a symmetrical way, until I thought I had the right size. Then, I tried it on with the CPAP blowing air at its top volume and carefully adjusted it again. Now it is much more comfortable to wear!

I've been up since 1:30AM, so the CPAP hasn't helped me break the insomnia cycle yet. But I did sleep until something like 5:30AM Sunday morning, although most of that was without the CPAP. It's just going to take time, I know, but I WANT IT NOW. Patience was never one of my virtues.

I've Lost Christmas!

Ya know how sometimes it's too warm when you should be Christmas shopping, and it's just hard to get in the mood? Well, something like that has happened to me this year. First, we have had shirt sleeve weather, which doesn't help the situation any, but that's not really the problem. It just doesn't feel like Christmas to me this year.

We're not going to see either of our daughters or their families this weekend. We didn't decorate our house, because we haven't been there enough to do it, nor to see it if we had. We put a tiny tree up in Daddy's living room, but that's it. Our only Christmas shopping was over the internet, so we haven't been in any of the crowds, nor had the fun of looking for all the little stocking stuffer unique oddities that our grown kids and grandkids look forward to. I've even missed all the Christmas programs at church.

Oh, we've had the songs on the radio, but they start that way too early, so it loses its effect. My Sunday School Class did come by here on the way to their Christmas party and sing Christmas carols to Daddy. That was about as close to feeling like it really was Christmas as I have felt. In the vacuum of taking care of Daddy and trying to take care of myself, it just doesn't feel magical this year. And that's very depressing. There, I've said it out loud. Yes, I am depressed this Christmas, a feeling I have never experienced before on such a joyous holiday.

I never meant, when I started this blog, for it to turn into a place to wallow in self pity, but it sure seems more and more that's all I'm doing. I guess I could make excuses and call it therapeutic LOL. All I wanted to do was keep a running record of what it was like from day to day, for my own sake, and possibly to benefit someone else going through similar experiences with Parkinson's.

I was also hoping that by posting regularly, my keywords would attract other PWP through the Search Engines, and I could enjoy some conversations with other people going through the same things I am. That hasn't happened, either. Maybe it will in time, but right now the Page Rank of this blog is still zero. It's hard to move up through the Google ranks, and it takes time and patience.

So we take one day at a time, each one feeling pretty much like the day before, expecting the next to feel pretty much like today. It's a care giving rut that leaves no end in sight, because only God knows the outcome of all this. All we can do is our best from moment to moment.

Developing Our Plan of Attack

In order to understand my approach to having a chronic illness, you need to know a little about me and my side of the family. My grandmother had and my Daddy has Macular Degeneration. My Daddy has been legally blind now for over 30 years, gradually losing more and more of his sight, but never doing anything to prepare himself for being blind.

I've said for years that if I were ever diagnosed with the beginnings of MD, I'd immediately start learning Braille and take classes on how to take care of myself from a low vision standpoint.

My approach to any illness is to search the Internet for every bit of information I can find. I have a Chemistry major, with a strong background in Biology and Biochemistry, so the technical papers usually make at least some sense to me.

With that said, it shouldn't be so surprising that I've spent almost all this week researching everything I can find about Parkinson's Disease. I've found bits and pieces of information on various sites that I've bookmarked for myself, but the links that have the most information, presented clearly, I'll be listing in the right hand column.

DH and I are working together, bouncing ideas around as we try to understand how to balance the medicine with the foods that interfere with the medicine, but are necessary for good health. I did my first set of the PD exercises today, and DH bought a different cereal for me, based on the nutrition information I found.

By the time I see the Neurologist again, I should have a good idea what I need to ask him about. Of course I'm still assuming the DX is going to be PD, but at least I feel like I'm doing something besides waiting for the next appointment.