Mouth Spasms Still a Problem Sometimes

I have had a couple of days since the great improvement that have not been as pleasant as most have been, and yesterday was one of them. It starts out innocently enough, with a little mouth movement in the mornings. But as the day progresses the twitches get harder and harder.

I have tried relaxation techniques, getting busy and trying to ignore it, and chewing gum, but once the twitch starts I don't seem to be able to get it stopped. By the end of the day my whole face aches from the constant muscle spasms. The same thing happened late July 4th Holiday and all day Saturday, which I attributed to just being tired from all the family celebration and noise. But yesterday has no explanation.

When I tried to go to sleep I became aware of small muscle tensions and aches here and there all over my body, and I had one of the worst foot cramp episodes I have had in some time. Not only the toes, but also the arch went into full spasm, and it took pushing with a lot of pressure to get it stopped. I had to get back up and stand on my tiptoes as best I could to get rid of it.

Luckily I am sleeping well now, so once I was asleep it went away. Our bodies are naturally paralyzed in our sleep, so it gives some relief from the spasms. My mouth is behaving itself this morning, thank goodness. I can only hope that it continues to stay calm.

I am beginning to use an exercise/relaxation tape every other day now. I do pretty well with the upright exercises, but I am just pitiful on the floor. It's all I can do to get down there and back up, let alone do the stretches. But I try. Then when I do get back up it takes me a good bit of moving around to stop the cramps in the tendons at the upper thigh. My whole body is clamped down tighter than a drum, and it's going to take some doing to get any flexibility back. One day at a time, being a little more active each day and increasing my range of motion slowly, is the only way I know how to do it.

Even though the mouth problem and the foot cramps are very painful and aggravating, I am still so much better than I was that there is no comparison. I continue to be so thankful for my vast improvement and remain optimistic.

Half Pill More of Primidone is Working Just Fine

I hesitated to start taking more of the Primidone for the very first time on our Date Day, just in case it left me loopy, but I decided to take a chance. It was just this sort of extra exercise that made the Primidone wear off faster in the afternoon. I had no problem with it at all. Our very first Estate Sale involved a long walk up a steep driveway to get to the house, and yet I was still steady yesterday evening. So that appears to be the correct dose for me right now. As I gradually increase my activity level, I may have to adjust it again. but for now - it's great!!

I'm still bubbling over such great news and wonderful relief from the jerks, shakes, and twitches. Hubby has been teasing me about how much I'm talking now. He drawls, "It sure was quiet around here," and sounds just like my Daddy - always finding some way to say something negative. He is teasing, and we both laugh every time he says it. It's a shame my Daddy never learned to look on the bright side of things, but I learned my lesson well from him and don't want to ever be that way.

And now I really do have something positive to shout from the rooftops!!! God has blessed me with a wonderful new lease on life, and I can't give Him praises enough!

Praise GOD from Whom All BLESSINGS Flow!!!

I really am doing great, and it's wonderful to be able to say that. Some days I don't have any abnormal movements at all, and on others I have only tolerable ones. I have been on cloud nine now for a couple of weeks, and it looks like I'm here to stay.

I have noticed that as I become more active and expend more muscle effort that the medicine wears off sooner in the evenings. The Movement Disorder doctor said to call him back in two weeks, and he would discuss raising the daytime dose maybe a half pill at that time. Sounds good to me. He just doesn't want me to zombie out on the Primidone, and I don't want that, either. He mentioned physical therapy to help with the slow walking, but that just does not seem necessary to me. I know how to be safe, and as I feel better I am naturally increasing my physical activity. I'm so used to listening to what my body is telling me that I can judge pretty well when it's time to quit.

My house certainly appreciates the extra attention I have been able to give it lately! There's plenty more to do, though. I have about two years of clutter to wade through. When you feel as bad as I have and as unsteady as I have it's just easier and safer to ignore a lot. Hubby has kept us in good meals and clean clothes, but the "stuff" has piled up.

We celebrated our 44th Wedding Anniversary yesterday. I wrote a long post about it on our Yesterday's Memories blog, so I won't repeat that here. The fantastic thing is that even though I was exhausted at night from all we did during the day the last two days, I feel fine today. My muscles are definitely adjusting to more activity.

So I leave this post with a positive outlook and a heart full of thanksgiving!! Whooopppieeeeeeeeee!!!

On Days - Off Days

I am definitely less depressed since gradually cutting the dose and frequency of the Clonazepam, but it has not been very predictable. Thursday I went until sometime after 5:00PM without any facial tics at all, and then spent the whole evening jerking like crazy. when I'm like that, my face contorts, my left shoulder jerks forward, and my foot dances a jig uncontrollably. I was on a half pill only at night then. Friday I jerked and twitched all day long, also on the half pill dose. I also had a huge startle reflex while we were out on our Date Day, something I haven't done to that extent in some time. Now today, Saturday, my mouth is all quiet and well behaved so far. I did not take even the half pill of the Clonazepam last night.

I had called twice to UAB, trying to get them to go on and send in the prescription for an alternative to the Clonazepam, because our drugstore would be closed from Friday evening until Tuesday. They did not get it called in, nor did I get a callback from a member of Dr. Watt's team. The receptionist did tell me on my second call that Dr. D was sick. He is the member of the team who apparently is the one I will be seeing the most. So, I have to assume that is why nothing was taken care of.

I have found that I can at least mask what my mouth is doing in public by chewing sugar free gum. I've always been a gum smacker, so I am trying to get out of that habit, and reach a point were I can slowly chew and control the horrible twisting, twitching, and jerks my mouth does so much.

The right foot continues to do its own little dance, which makes me feel unstable as I stand still or walk. Going up and down steps is harder when there is no way of knowing what my foot is going to do at the moment. So I am still using the cane everywhere except here in the house and at church. The few steps I have to deal with at church are entrances, and hubby is there with me going in and out, so I can skip the cane and feel a little more inconspicuous.

I should have taken the last dose of the Clonazepam last night, but I thought it would be wiser to see how I would be today, rather than being even more unpredictable than usual for church tomorrow morning. Since I've been OK today, it looks like the decreasing dosing was done slowly enough to not leave any withdrawal symptoms. But there is now way of knowing how I will be in the next minute, let alone tomorrow for church.

I continue to stay busy searching and posting on our Lost Toy blog, and have been able to help quite a few families, thanks to all the folks who read the requests for help and search for them, too. If you have never been to that blog, you ought to go read some of the stories and try to help them. It's a very satisfying feeling to help them. And I continue to add to our online Plush Toy catalog, too, so I stay very busy.

Oh, and I mustn't forget to mention that it looks like our Centipede grass is actually beginning to come up in the composted side yard. I worked for a little while this morning in between the shrubs and the driveway, digging that section up and trying to get as many of the weeds out of that section as I can. We can plant Centipede here until July, so I should have it ready long before then.

Take each moment as it comes, Rosemary - a lesson I am being taught daily.

Weaning Off Clonazepam = Thinking More Positively

I'm down to a half tablet at night now, starting today. I will stay on that for three days, and then I will be through with it. I sense the depression passing somewhat, but certainly not all of it. I was depressed before they put me on it, just not as much.

I've been trying to work off as much of my tension and fears in the yard the last few days. I've spread the rich composted "dirt" and planted Centipede seed there. I don't know if any of it will grow, but the weeds are sure enjoying the rich dirt. I can't very well pull the weeds, as the grass is still germinating. The idea is to let the growing grass choke out the weeds on its own. Since that section of the yard is pretty much finished, I've moved to a small section of grass at the front of the house. I'm wetting it down at night and then working on digging all the grass weeds out of it the next day. The hoeing is very therapeutic. It's kind of like a punching bag for me.

My biggest problem right now is that I can't get out in the yard without setting off a poison ivy outbreak, no matter how hard I try to stay away from it and bathe as soon as I come in. I've been super itchy now for some time, because I don't want to take any antihistamines on top of the Clonazepam.

I've been trying to read about Tardive Dyskinesia, which certainly seems to fit what I look like these days. I can't even spell it right half the time, but Google very nicely suggests how to spell it for me. If that's it, then I can add TD to my list of acronyms.

My mouth is definitely jerking and twisting more as the Clonazepam dosage is reduced in my system, but they have told me that there are other prescriptions they will try to reduce the tics and jerks, once I'm off this med. And I've started chewing sugarless gum a lot, too, as that keeps my mouth busy. I chewed so long last night I made my jaw hurt, but at least I didn't have my mouth pulling to the side and twisting all around. I will definitely be using this trick in public, as I am extremely self conscious about the way my face looks now.

Our wonderful pharmacist has printed out all the prescriptions I have been on since he opened his store some years ago. I haven't yet tried to track down where my records would be stored from the previous drugstore, but he suggested I try the CVS in a nearby town. We went without a drugstore at all for quite awhile there, as the previous pharmacist gave up his store to work for CVS. I haven't called yet, because it is likely a waste of time. But I will call. I'll just have to be in the mood to do it.

I've tried researching every medicine that I can remember ever being on, and a few are possible causes. But there's nothing to be done, other than try to deal with the symptoms. Tardive means it's a delayed reaction, so there is no med to "stop taking" to make the movements go away. Our family has always joked that an aspirin will put me to sleep, so I suppose it's not surprising that I would be one who had a delayed side effect to some medicine I've taken in the past.

I haven't been going to the Parkinson's forum. I just don't know what to say there any more. I guess I would still qualify for membership, since I'm dealing with a Movement Disorder of some kind, but I just don't feel like I fit right now.

Hubby has been a big help, and isn't mad at me any more about my reaction to the doctor's news. He's such a sweetie, and I know all this has been really hard on his emotions, too. I don't know what I would do without him.

I ran across a copy of Michael J. Fox's book, Lucky Man, at a yard sale not long ago, and I finished reading it last night. There were several things in it that made me feel better about myself. He talked about all the things he did to make his early tremors stop - how he tricked his brain - so he could hide it from the television and movie audience. That process of being able to temporarily stop a tremor with little mind and body tricks is one reason I thought I was suffering from a psychosomatic illness. I did not realize that at least some people with PD can consciously stop tremors momentarily. I have feared from the very beginning that being able to stop them for a brief while meant mine were not "real."

So, as it stands now, I don't have Peripheral Neuropathy, and there's no way of knowing if I ever did or not. I'm inclined to think I did, but all the super nutritious foods we have been eating for the last two years, plus the Turmeric and all the vitamins and minerals I take, just healed the nerve pathways.

Parkinson's is likely not the problem, although I have not ruled it out completely, as the doctor's always hedge what they say about that. I do have a Movement Disorder of some kind, and I am getting past the point of blaming it on myself. That's a good thing!!

Reading Fox's book helped me, so I hope that reading this blog can help someone, too.

Choking Episode

I'm still feeling remarkably well, considering it's been weeks now since I took a PD med. Reading a post on PLM makes me think it's at least in part due to the 6-8 cups of green tea I'm drinking most days. Taking the Turmeric and eating a lot of the Super Foods, mostly raw, probably has a lot to do with it, too.

I'm doing my neck exercises each morning, using the cervical collar daily for about 15 minutes, and using the TENS when I need it, so I'm not hurting much, either.

But I did have another choking episode this morning. It's a little hard to explain. I've done it several times lately with my own saliva, but this morning I had a mouth full of tea when a tiny amount just slipped down the wrong way. I wasn't really swallowing, either. That's what has been happening with saliva, too. I may not know how it's happening, but I sure know the results! I end up coughing and gagging for several minutes each time, and it hurts. I'm going to have to try to figure out exactly what is happening, so I can decide the best way to prevent it.

Other than that, I'm feeling fine. I worked really hard on our collectibles and toy inventory yesterday, and pretty well wore myself out, trying to get it stored in a more logical and organized way. But it was good exercise, and I'm glad I was able to do it. I also added another pile to the lasagna compost. That is slowly building up an area of rich material about 100 square feet or so and over a foot high. I haven't done any walking or Tai Chi for some time, and I do need to get back to it, now that I'm feeling better.

There was a good explanation of voice exercises on PLM, too, so I guess I'll try to add those exercises to my daily routine, too.

And, to finish this post on a positive note, neither one of us have a single doctor's appointment this whole month!!!

Still Doing Pretty Well

I'm still off the PD meds, and I just updated my Profile on PLM. My PDRS score, which is a way of quantifying symptoms, is better than it was a month ago. Of course it's still a very crude way to put a score on something that really can't be scored. If you've ever had to tell a nurse or doctor how you rate your pain on a 1 to 10 scale, then you know what I mean.

Church is still hard on me, as the pews are not comfortable for me now. They should be, as they have a very good cushion, but the space between pews is narrow, and the backs are hard. Turning to look at the preacher while he speaks still aggravates my neck, too.

I've stopped using the TEN's until I can talk to the Physical Therapist. They told me not to put it anywhere near my heart, which makes perfect sense. But there have been several times when I would get what felt like a pulsing muscle pull where my heart is in front, when I have the electrodes near the bottom of my shoulder blade. That would put the electricity near the back side of my heart as near as I can figure. So, I'm doing without it for now.

The cervical collar and the exercises seem to be helping, at least.

I have noticed several times in the last few days that I had had a painful burning sensation at different places on my feet. When I grab the place and rub it out, the place goes numb for a little while. I'm guessing that the PD meds have been blocking some of the Peripheral Neuropathy pain that is common with that problem.

I'm in the process of checking out a new laptop I bought this weekend. It was an open box item, so I only have 14 days to be sure there is nothing wrong with it. Plus, it came from a big chain store who had put all kinds of software on it advertising their company. It even had a user with a password they hadn't bothered to tell me about. I got around that by reinstalling the original disks. But now, I'm still uninstalling all that junk the computer manufacturer lets various software companies fill the computer with.

Most people probably pay the store to get the computer ready to use, but I enjoy the challenge. Fiddling with computers has always been enjoyable to me, but the most pleasure these days comes from the absolutely wonderful feeling hubby and I both get when we can help one of the families who have told their story on our Plush Memories Lost Toy Search Service blog find a lost lovey. And, to do that, I have to have a computer. So, to get the best thing - helping people - I get to do the next best thing - working on my computer.

So, I continue to watch how my body is behaving, and working on the computer, too.

Odd Physical Therapy Today

I went to PT this morning, and they did start me on some exercises, all for my arms. The first few were fairly easy, but then she had me pushing down with what seemed like more resistance than the others were set for. I stopped at the first set of ten on that one, instead of doing two sets of ten the way I had done all the others.

Then I moved to the pulley rope, which I've done before with other therapy, and it's always fairly easy, unless you just can't raise your arms. I had no trouble with that at all. Problems came when I stood up from that one, though.

I woke up this morning trembling more than usual, and getting into the cold car this morning just made it worse. And then I did all this new exercising on top of that. I guess everything just worked together to bring major big time tremors in my legs and arms, all at the same time. I was frozen in place, unable to move, because I was just not in control at the moment. The Aide immediately pulled a chair over for me, and I didn't do any more exercises. They hovered over me for awhile, with me assuring them that I was OK, that it would ease off on its own, that there wasn't anything they could do, and I really was OK.

After I convinced them that I was not going to fall, they moved me to the room where they do the ultrasound and heat therapy with the TENS machine, and everything went as usual. About half way through all that, the tremors settled down to just the usual quiver in my right arm and leg.

The only thing I can think of is that using the machine that was apparently set with too much resistance for me to handle just used up the dopamine I had available for a little while. It will be interesting to see if I can find anything to agree or disagree with my hypothesis.

It's been a shaky afternoon, and I just gave in to my chocolate craving - that's my way to deal with stress, as any chocoholic will tell you. And my neck is sore, but not painful, from the exercise. But at least I'm walking around about like usual - maybe a little shakier, but not much.

She told me I have 3 more visits before I have to see the Orthopedist again, so I need to make that appointment. I should have done it today, but I'm in one of those procrastinating moods today, and I just didn't feel like doing it. These moods don't make any sense, but I get into them every once in awhile. Things that happen like this morning seem to bring this apathy on, like everything is just too much trouble. It's stupid, I know, but it's just the way I get at times. I'll snap out of it, just as the shakes finally stopped. Just takes a little time.

Tomorrow is Date Day, and it will be a better day. I'm sure of it!

First Physical Therapy Session

I went back to the same PT I have used before, and I was fortunate enough to get the same therapist. She asked lots of questions about what brought on the stiff and painful neck. She manipulated my head, and we chatted a bit about how my diagnosis got undiagnosed. I gave her the link to Patients Like Me, and I hope she takes me up on the invitation to join.

She seems to think that the electrical stimulation (TENS) and ultrasound will help these muscles relax, and she expects to do some stretching exercises on Friday. Bless her heart, but she remembered that Friday was our Date Day, and apologized for messing it up. But DH will be fine with that, as this is only for a few weeks.

We did something this afternoon we have never done before. I made a smoothie! Hubby bought me a blender for Christmas, because I had said something about wanting to try some. I mixed a banana, raw spinach, a little parsley, some soy milk, and a touch of honey, and we both tried it. It wasn't half bad, and we both drank it all. Not bad at all for my first attempt.

It always makes me feel better when I feel like I am taking control of a situation, and getting the PT started and learning a way to improve our nutrition is a good start for one day. Yippeeee!

This is a Hard Post to Write

I saw my Neurologist yesterday, and it turns out I did have good reason to be apprehensive about the appointment.

First of all, he agreed that I did not have any business having the epidurals on my cervical vertebrae. So, I called my Orthopedist to let them know that they could schedule the Physical Therapy, but not the epidurals. They called back later, and have already faxed the prescription to the PT I used last time, which is close to home. So, hopefully, I will be getting some relief from the neck pain and stiffness soon. Holidays, of course, will be in the way of a regular schedule, so who knows when I will actually start the sessions. It could easily be the beginning of next year.

He also took me off of the Levadopa/Carbidopa plus Lodosyn meds that the ER doc had added to my treatment, since it didn't seem to be helping much at all. Taking too much of these meds can cause dyskinesia, which is involuntary movements. That may be why I had such an odd tremor develop of late, plus all the facial and tongue tics I have been experiencing.

But the news from the exam that has me so upset right now is that he is no longer sure I have Parkinson's. He watched me walk, and I was so nervous by then that he got to see me at my worst. Both legs bobbing up and down like I was trying to walk across the floor of one of those carnival blow up bounce machines, and having to hold out my arms to the sides to keep my balance. Turning around and coming back towards him was just as bad. He had me take off my socks and shoes, and he did all the usual hitting with the hammer. He scraped the bottom of each foot, and also suddenly pushed both feet straight up several times, in a slapping kind of motion.

I have had the foot scrape thing done many times before, and I know what that was testing me for - the Babinski effect. That's a test I failed some years ago when I was seeing a different Neurologist for migraine headaches. As far as I know I have not failed it since then. It has to do with the way your toes curl or straighten out when a hard object is scraped from the heel towards the toes. The normal reflex is to curl the toes inward. If the toes spread out, with the big toe stretching upward, it's a sign of a lower extremity nerve problem. I don't know if I passed it this time or not. He didn't say, and I was too upset to ask. I have tried to look up what the sudden slapping of my feet upward meant, as I have never had that done to me before, but I haven't been able to come up with the right search terms yet to find out what that was all about. He did move my arms around, while I kept them relaxed, and said he did not feel any cog wheeling. That's something he would expect to find if I had Parkinson's, and he has said in the past that he did feel it. It has something to do with the tremors, but that's about all I know about cog wheeling.

They have made an appointment for me with the Chair of the Neurology Department at the University of Alabama in Birmingham. He is the Movement Disorder Specialist in this area, and is supposed to be my best chance of finding out what is wrong with me. Parkinson's effects people in so many different ways, it may yet turn out to be the PD that my Neuro had initially diagnosed.

But for now, he has listed my diagnosis as the Peripheral Neuropathy plus Gait Debility. I'm back to that "not knowing" stage, and it is extremely upsetting for me, and for my dear sweet hubby. Of course, as you might expect with the chair of the department, I can't get an appointment until the end of April. That's going to be a long, long wait that is not going to be easy.

I felt such relief when my Neuro put a name to what was happening to me - even if it was that I had Parkinson's. Now I am in limbo again, and I hate it.

Hubby has asked that I stop reading and researching about Parkinson's for awhile, just to be sure that I have not been subconsciously absorbing the symptoms that I was reading about. That's a fair request, so I have said a temporary goodbye to my Parkie friends on PatientsLikeMe, and will not be doing any PD research for awhile. I am going to continue to try to find out more about Peripheral Neuropathy, though, because there is no doubt that I have that. Unlike Parkinson's, there are definitive tests for PN, which I most definitely have.

I don't know how to adequately explain how I am feeling about all this right now. It's almost as if I found out I was adopted, or something like that. It's like my identity has been ripped to shreds, if that makes sense. I have developed some really close friendships with some wonderful PWP over the last year. Now, with one sentence, my Neuro has put the nature of that relationship in limbo.

This NOT KNOWING stage I am in again is very hard to deal with. I am vacillating between being scared of something worse than Parkinson's, and being relieved that it could be something less progressive in nature than PD.

God is forever trying to teach me patience, and reliance on Him, rather than my own abilities. Looks like He is working on that big time right now. We haven't actually said anything out loud, but I think hubby and I are going to keep this turn of events to ourselves for now. I can't see any good reason to add this uncertainty to our children's lives. They have enough to worry about on their own. So, I will pour out my feelings here on my blog, since no one who knows me personally ever reads it.

Two Ruptured Cervical Disks - No Wonder I'm Hurting!

I talked with my Orthopedist's PA the other day, and she confirmed what I already knew. The disks are bulging on the two cervical vertebrae that are degenerating, and that's what is causing the pain and stiffness. She doesn't want to make an anesthesiologist appointment to get an epidural there until I have a chance to talk to my Neurologist. I see him Wednesday. I did ask that she talk to my Neuro's nurse, rather than expect me to relay messages. It seems that the ER did not send any information to him about my time in the ER in September, when I had the horrible drug interaction with a steroid shot. So his nurse was completely surprised to hear I had a bad reaction.

So, we'll be going to the hospital to sign the release form to get the records to take to my Neuro.

I continue to be concerned and in prayer for several Parkie buddies on the PatientsLikeMe site, who have been diagnosed with skin cancers. One has Melanoma, and the other has Squamous Cell Cancer. Both were caught early, with every reason to believe they will be just fine. We are all praying for their recovery.

There is another woman on there who's brother also has PD, who had unrelated surgery, and to quote her - "his brain is mush." She said he has already tried to leave the hospital. When I thought I was going to have to have surgery back a few months ago, I learned all kinds of scary things about how difficult it is for PWP to have any kind of anesthesia without serious side effects. Also, it is very difficult to get hospitals to keep the PD meds coming on time. And that can mean the difference between being mobile and thinking normally, and not.

I wore my new "Sunday" shoes today, and I really like them. They help with my balance, they feel good on, and they are unobtrusive. I doubt if anyone has even noticed that I'm not wearing dress shoes. I don't feel the least bit self conscious in them, so if someone has noticed them - I don't care.

I am having one problem, though, that came unexpectedly. Last night I noticed a red itchy place on my wrist where the back of the Timex watch is against my skin. I had noticed that the skin was getting slick and shiny there a couple of weeks ago, so I started taking it off at night to go to sleep. Evidently I didn't heed the warning in time, as I now have a nice round ringworm there. It's been holding too much moisture against my skin, as it is fairly tight. It's a big man size watch, and not particularly comfortable, but I was willing to tolerate it, because it is so helpful. I may end up taking the band off, and just keeping it in my pocket.

I have not been able to do much exercising for the last month, partly because of my neck, but mostly because my DH over did it and his Sciatica is acting up again. I've been so busy working on the requests on our Plush Memories blog that I have been sitting still more than I probably should be. I've not been doing the Tai Chi, either. I know I really need to get back with a scheduled exercise program, the way I was before.

So, some things improve, while other new aggravations begin. Not so different than what happens to everyone, right?

Neck Pain and Tremors Causing Problems

I'm having two main problems from the Parkinson's right now - my very stiff and painful neck, and the much increased tremors, particularly in my right foot.

I'm sleeping with a very soft neck pillow, the kind that look like a C, and I keep it behind my neck while I sit at the computer, too. That helps me get to sleep and cuts down on the pain of just holding my head up. As the day goes on, the pain is getting worse and worse.

I am waiting to hear from my Orthopedist now about a standing MRI appointment. Hubby has Jury Duty next week, so that means I will have to wait longer to get it done. Can't be helped, but it's frustrating. He had to ask for a deferral back when we were taking care of Daddy, so he can't very well ask for another one because he is taking care of me. There is absolutely no way I could drive myself to the big city, as long as it's been since I've driven at all, even though I am no longer having the sudden sleep attacks. Maybe, if he is lucky, he won't have to serve for long, and I can get it done toward the end of this week. I sure hope so. The Methacarbamol and Mobic aren't helping enough to warrant taking the pills, so I quit taking them.

I've tried to continue with as much exercise as possible, but DH hurt his back again several weeks ago, and his sciatic nerve is acting up. He hasn't felt like going to the track, so I haven't been getting enough exercise lately. I am still working out in the yard the best I can, but it makes my neck hurt worse.

I'm also having considerably more problems due to tremors. For the first year of PD I didn't have any tremors at all. I was beginning to have small ones on Sundays mostly, while we were listening to the sermon. I finally decided that it was the uncomfortable pews, being too still too long, and being cold, all working together to stress my muscles. But that was a very mild nuisance tremor.

Since I had the steroid interaction that sent me to the ER, however, the tremor in my right leg and foot have been so strong that it makes walking and standing much more difficult. It still comes and goes, but when I get the least bit tired, as I do when I walk very much, that leg starts dancing a jig all on its own. I am having more problems with balance because of it, and I am beginning to experience what is called freezing. When I stand up, I have to kind of wait before I can get that pesky right foot to make up its mind to move where I want it to, it's so busy moving where it wants to.

One thing's for sure, I look like I have Parkinson's now, where I didn't until recently. Even my lips, tongue, and eyebrows are beginning to quiver. We had our portraits made the other day to give to our children for Christmas, and it was all I could do to hold the poses long enough to get a good picture. My face behaved, but not my leg. It took every bit of will power I had to make my leg be still. If I hold my breath and really concentrate, I can stop the tremors momentarily, thank goodness. I had to do that to get the X-rays on my neck done a couple of weeks ago, too.

So, things have been a little difficult lately, but I am still managing OK. I've been listing a lot on eBay, and we have had some good sales there. I've also been concentrating on trying to help as many people as I can on my Plush Memories blog. I've managed to find several lost lovies for people, and some of my blog readers there have found a few more. And, there have been a few times that we had the lovey they were looking for in stock, so I've made a few sales, and made some folks very happy all at the same time. That's what makes selling the plush toys so much fun.

We are still going to Estate Sales, but this time of year there usually aren't as many on a given Friday. That's OK, because I really can't manage more than a few anyway, as I tire out and hurt too much to go to very many. So, we have been doing a little bit of Estate Sale hunting and a little bit of Christmas shopping on Fridays. The only thing we absolutely have to go to stores for is all the Stocking Stuffer odds and ends that we give our children and grandchildren every year. And this year, we have been buying things for their stockings all year long, which is a blessing.

Thank goodness for Internet shopping! I've been buying most of our gifts online for years, but this year it has been a blessing. The black pair of Skechers came the other day, and I wore them to get our portraits made. They feel wonderful, and they do improve may stability much more than the Sunday shoes I have been wearing. Our daughters wear the same size shoes I do, so looks like they will be getting some hand me down shoes.

So, I keep going, making changes as I must.

Insurance Has APPROVED My Dental Appliance!!

I knew I was having a good day yesterday! When we came home from our Date Day, I had a lovely letter waiting for me, stating that the TAP Dental Appliance has been approved by my insurance for the treatment of my Sleep Apnea. I immediately called them to find out how to get my money back, as I had to pay my dentist for it up front. They are sending me the forms to take care of this. Whooopiieeeee!! I had anticipated some trouble with them agreeing that it was eligible, so that's something else I can cross off my list.

My neck is still very uncomfortable, but I made myself work on the compost heap this morning. I can't afford to give in to it, or I'll find myself able to do less and less.

I actually slept until my first medicine alarm went off this morning at 5:00AM! EIGHT HOURS OF SLEEP!!! That's the first time that has happened. I'm still waking up quite a bit in the night, but unlike before, I am able to drift back to sleep, even after I've been up to use the bathroom.

We ate at on of our favorite Mexican restaurants yesterday for lunch, but I was a good girl and got the Huevos Rancheros, which is nothing but sunny side up eggs with sauce on top. I scrape the sauce over to the side, eat the Spanish rice and the eggs, and just taste the refried beans. I did get a side order of the guacamole, which I really enjoy and finished off a bunch of the tostados they bring. I did NOT have the woozy feeling after lunch. So I'm pretty sure it's not protein that sets it off. It may be fat, though. I've basically been avoiding eating beef or pork for lunch. Most of the week we had the fake crab meat in a spinach and cabbage salad, and that does not cause the funny feeling, either.

I'm still having real problems with tremors and walking is not as easy, as I have this constant feeling of walking on Jello, because my legs are shaking the whole time I am walking. I'm using the cane just about any time we leave the house now, except for church. I'm trying to hold off using it there, because I get asked too many questions about how I'm doing. It makes me self conscious. I have started taking a lap robe to church, though, as I have come to realize that I have the hard tremors in church because I'm cold! I'll be making an appointment with the Neurologist next week, now that I've been on the new meds for awhile and the apnea and tummy are well under control.

Our older daughter and her hubby are going to do the honors for Thanksgiving Dinner this year. They both love to cook, which I never did, and this is their first holiday in their new home. I've always been the one to have the Thanksgiving meal, but I'm very happy to pass this tradition along to her, and just help out with the expense. Hopefully our younger daughter and her family will be able to come, too. With me not having to do anything for dinner, I can really enjoy the day.

So, things continue to come to good conclusions, and I remain optimistic. May we all have a great day today!!

Some Things Better, Progress with Others

I've been busy the last few days trying to get used to the TAP and regulating my meds and diet to try to deal with the colon problems I've had for well over a year now. The TAP dental appliance is doing as well as I would expect. I slept about 7 hours last night, which is a huge improvement for me. I am still waking up a couple of times in the night to go to the bathroom, though, so it's not yet a completely restful sleep. It's time for me to make an appointment for a new Sleep Study, to see if the device is handling my Apnea appropriately. That will be the determining factor on whether I can get my insurance to pay for the TAP or not, and whether it's worth using.

I am pleased to see that there is a way to use the TAP device as the anchoring mechanism for a CPAP mask, if it becomes necessary to go back on that. A nasal pillow delivery system can be attached directly to the dental appliance, so there would be no straps or mask all over my face. That's encouraging, as it means I can look forward to either getting by with just the TAP, or the TAP plus CPAP - but NO MASK!!! So, I'm very optimistic about the coming Sleep Study.

As for the elimination situation, I am somewhat improved, although certainly not where I would like to be. I'm still belching and having gas problems, but not having as much trouble actually going to the bathroom as I was. So, the Acidophilus, the Bentyl prescription, and an extra Metamucil capsule a day seem to be the right plan of attack for that problem.

DH and I have been searching for some practical ways for me to keep track of all my pills, the dosing times, and a way to effectively keep me on schedule. I seem to have some kind of Freudian aversion to remembering to take my pills. I hate having to take so much medicine, and I think it's causing some kind of passive aggressive reaction that I'm going to have to overcome. We've taken some positive steps to get over this hump. We bought two Plano tool/fishing tackle boxes, each with 4 storage boxes in it. That gives me enough boxes for 8 days, so I can make up meds once a week and have a spare. Right now I am taking medicine at 12 different times a day, so I put a numbered sticker in the bottom of each little compartment, with the dosing time on it. I can take the small box for one day with me wherever I go fairly easily. I even found that I could use my Bible cover to "hide" my pills on Sunday. I just carried my Bible loose and put the pill box in where the Bible would have been. I have to take a dose between Sunday School and Church, so this worked nicely.

Getting me on a dependable schedule was the next problem to handle. I searched for days all over the Internet, looking for pill reminder systems that I thought would work for me. Most would not give enough alarms to suit my needs, or any PWP's needs, for that matter. PWP tend to take our meds closer and closer to each other as the disease progresses, so it's not unusual for a Parkie to be taking something every hour during the day, and even getting up in the night to take something. Also, some of the more promising systems only allowed you to set pill reminders from say 8:00AM to midnight, and my first pill is at 5:00 AM.

So, I ended up buying a Timex Ironman Data Link watch, which can be connected to the computer via USB. It's like having a PDA on your wrist. It came yesterday, but I have been studying everything I could find about it while I waited for it to come, and I had my pill schedule all ready to send to the watch. It worked like a charm. It beeps and the face lights up and flashes for several seconds, and the names of the pills I need to take scroll across the watch face. If I don't push a button on the watch, I get another reminder in 5 minutes. Since I'll be wearing it, I'm much more likely to heed the reminder. I also have the reminders set up on Outlook, since the computer is on all day long, anyway.

The watch needs to be quite large, as you might expect, so it's the size of a man's sports watch. I don't mind that, if it keeps me from forgetting a pill, as I have been prone to do. For now, it's in my pocket, because I'm going to have some links taken out of the band. There's a lot to learn about this watch, but the main thing for me was the Alarm mode, as it allows up to 200 alarms a day! And that was super easy to get up and running.

My tremors still remain, not as bad as they were when I went to the ER, but still enough to make me feel like I'm trying to walk on Jello, and it gets worse as I get tired later on in the day. I use the walls and the furniture here in the house to steady myself, and I have managed to do without my cane at church, by the hardest. But anywhere else we go, like our Date Day, or to go out to eat, I'm using the cane. The hand tremors are also more prominent, and don't seem to ever go away completely, but I can handle a fork and spoon OK, and type, so I can live with that.

My biggest problem has been the odd about to pass out feeling I've been getting after lunch and supper, but not breakfast. We've checked my blood pressure during a couple of these attacks, and it's always low, like 98/58 low. I can't do much but sit very still and wait for the feeling to pass. I have found that eating something sweet makes me feel better, but that may just be because it's a comfort food for me. Or, it may means that this feeling is from a low blood sugar situation, rather than a low blood pressure one.

We may have narrowed it down to being an interaction between the Sinemet and the protein in my meals. Yesterday, just as a test, I had a vegetable lunch without any meat, and I did not have the weird feeling later on. So, I'll try that again for a few days, and see what happens.

Dear sweet hubby took over the compost making task for me for the last couple of weeks, but I did it all by myself this morning. I'm very tired, but feeling good that I was able to accomplish it. I'm also sweeping off parts of the driveway almost daily now, and the deck and patio underneath every once in awhile. That gives my arms and shoulders a good workout, and it's good for my balance, too. I'm also using the trekking poles the whole time at the track now, where I usually do 3 laps, and then the leg exercises and my Tai Chi. My balance is still way off, so the Tai Chi looks pretty ragged, but I'm doing it anyway. After all, nobody but me knows just how pitiful my form is, right? ;)

So, I see progress with several areas of concern, but disappointment that I am in nowhere near as good a shape as I was before I had the Celestone shot that sent me to the ER.

I continue to try my best to live each day with a positive outlook, and I think the Bentyl has helped with the depression I was dealing with.

Cpap Adventure Continues

I've been on the new full face mask for a week now, with one extremely good night's sleep, night before last. I've been awake since 12:30AM today, though. I woke up with air just jetting out from under the bottom of the mask, where the silicon soft part had come out of the plastic part of the mask. By the time I woke up enough to realize what the problem was, and then fixed it, I was wide awake. I'm also continuing to have problems with my skin. I'm ready to try the all over the face kind. That's not supposed to irritate skin, as it fits at the hairline and all around the face completely. This is the last style there is, basically, so I'm about to run out of options, other than not use it at all. That 8 hours of sleep on Sunday night gave me such high hopes, too.

I continue to struggle with terrible gas, and I'll be calling my Gastro's nurse today to report in. Stopping the Amitiza just didn't help any. Nothing has really changed as far as feeling like something is wrong with my elimination process, either.

We walked at the track again yesterday morning, after several days off. This time it was due to DH having some pains, as I think he over did it when we started back walking the other day. Hopefully, he'll be OK this morning, and we can get our walk in. I also worked in the yard early yesterday morning, putting another pile in the Lasagna Compost area and digging around the foundation of our new garage. We need to get a drainage ditch around the front edge, so I'm hoeing just a little bit each day. I'm also trying to sweep off the driveway every day or so, as that is good exercise for my shoulders. It sure does feel funny, though, trying to sweep left handed. But I need to exercise both shoulders, so I do it, funny feeling or not. And boy, am I right sided. I'm pitiful trying to sweep "backwards". LOL

I've been doing more research, trying to see if there is anything I've missed about CPAP. I did find that I'm supposed to have the machine below head level, a fact that escaped me somehow. I didn't keep it on long enough last night to know if that would stop the "rain out", as it is called. That's when the humidifier in the machine causes condensation in the tubing, because the air in the room is cooler. I can't do without the moistened air, so I will need to deal with the condensation. It got so bad one night that it sounded like the thing was gargling!

I was also trying to find out of the machine is aggravating the gas I'm having, and yes, CPAP does often cause that, as many people swallow the air. It's supposed to be something you grow out of, and can be lessened by using the Ramp Up switch, which starts the pressure lower so you can go to sleep easier. I hadn't been using it, since going to sleep has never been my problem. But I did use it last night, and will from now on.

For all that I'm discouraged this morning, after so little sleep last night, I am still hopeful that I will adjust to the CPAP. I'm not so optimistic about my digestive system problem, though, and I am still wanting the colonoscopy. My legs and hands continue to be swollen with fluid, too. We'll see what the doctor has to say today.

Bits of This and That

I've been a good girl, and I've tried to use the C-Pap machine every night. I can only say try, because I'm still not using it all night long. I did manage to keep it on for 6 hours on Saturday night, and I thought I had it licked. Then last night I couldn't stand it past 1:30AM.

I'm pretty much used to the nose canula now, but the chin strap contraption is quite another matter. I'm going to call the tech again this morning for another appointment, since I only have another week before I'm stuck with whatever equipment I have after 30 days. I have Acne Rosacea, which normally is not a problem for me, as I quit wearing makeup, except for lipstick, many years ago. The reason I bring that up is that all these straps and bands is irritating my face. I'm starting to get red patches around my mouth where the chin strap is rubbing as I turn in the night. There are several other types of chin straps available, so I'm hoping she can find something else that I can use.

We're in the middle of a cold wave right now, with high temperatures in the 90's! So, DH got up this morning in the mood to go walking. We were out at the track at 5:15AM, and there were already people out there walking. It's really the only time of day that it's safe to be doing it right now. I did 3/4 mile, plus my knee and shoulder exercises, and the Tai Chi, while he did 2 miles. Not bad for the first time we've been there in several weeks. Of course, I've been walking around at home and working a little bit in the yard each morning, so I was not out of shape too badly. Maybe tomorrow I'll walk a mile, but I won't push it if I'm not ready. I learned that lesson really well.

The gas is still just as much a problem as it has been, and I'm supposed to call my Gastro this week to let him know how I'm doing. I'll wait a few more days, just in case DH's explanation is right. He thinks I need to give myself a few days for the colon to adjust after the GoLYTELY, and he's probably right.

I also noticed that the tremor in my hands is becoming more noticeable, and showing up more often. I've not had tremors up until recently. Balance wasn't so good yesterday, either. But I'm not in walking shoes on Sunday morning, and that could be it. I am wearing flats, with as much support as I could find, but I never feel as secure when I wear them. I'm not sure what I could wear that didn't look like athletic shoes, but I'm going to have to find something. Part of the problem right now is that I have more tissue swelling than I have been having. I've been on a diuretic for a long time, even before I was diagnosed with PD. But now, my fingers are so swollen that I can't completely close my fists. My ankles are badly swollen, too, and my weight is up, which I'm assuming is fluid.

So, I'm still dealing with lots of little problems, none of which, hopefully, are serious, but all are things that lesson my quality of life. I am thankful that I am in as good a shape as I am. Reading about all the problems that other PWP have makes me feel very blessed that I have a wonderful hubby to help me when I need it, and sympathize with me when I need that, too. I feel for those Parkies friends whose symptoms are so much more debilitating than mine are, and pray that they have a good day today.

Trying a Different C-Pap Mask

I took the c-pap stuff back to the supplier yesterday, and they have changed me to a very soft nasal "plug" that doesn't have nearly as much strapping all over my face as the nasal mask did. I slept 6 straight hours, without getting up at all. I can't remember how long it's been since I did that. It's not perfect, as my nostrils were sore this morning, and I can still feel the thing, even hours after it has been out. I've always had this odd thing where I could "feel" a hat long after I had taken it off, and this canula is doing the same thing.

I have hope now that I will adjust. The frustration I was feeling with the other face mask was really wearing me out. It's a good thing I don't cuss! LOL

I'm calling the Gastroenterologist today, as I want the colonoscopy for my peace of mind. I'm still not satisfied with my elimination situation. We took our kittens to the vet this morning, and I got light headed and had to sit down quickly, because we were standing, waiting for the vet to come in our treatment room. I blame that on my tummy, as I felt better after I excused myself and used their facilities.

I've started going out in our yard and working just as soon as it's daylight, as it's just too hot later on in the morning. So, my exercise routine is back on track, with walking and Tai Chi every day, plus working for a little while in the yard. By the time I come in around 7:00AM I'm drenched in sweat.

I'm definitely going to have to get my Neurologist to prescribe something to stop this excessive crying I'm doing. I broke out in blubbering at the c-pap office, trying to tell the tech how frustrated I was trying to adjust to the mask. I have learned that this is called emotional lability, and it is a PD side effect. He doesn't want to change my meds until I get the cpap and elimination situations settled, and that makes sense.

So, some things seem to be getting better, and others aren't.

In Wait and See Mode

The CPAP machine is getting a little bit easier to stand now, but I still haven't slept past 3:00AM with it on. That represents as much as 6 hours of sleep on a few nights, which is definitely better than before. I am having trouble keeping the chin strap on, as it is a soft band of stretchy material, with Velcro on the end. I need it because I am a mouth breather. Without it, I wake up with a sore throat and a dry mouth, as the forced air is being forced right down my throat.

So, I called the people that the CPAP machine came from, and we will take all the stuff into their office on Monday, and they'll see what they can do to help me.

So far, I'm not satisfied with the results of the Bowel Retraining routine the Gastroenterologist has me on, as I still have difficulty getting my muscles to work effectively. I'm to call him this next week to set up the colonoscopy, if I'm not satisfied with the results, so it looks like I may be scheduling that sometime soon.

So for the time being I'm in a state of limbo, just waiting for the right time to take care of things differently.

I have tried to get more exercise the last few days, but it has to be done at the crack of dawn, literally. I was outside walking around in the front, where the street light shines, at 5:30 this morning. It was already hot, but certainly bearable. I worked in the yard a bit, swept the driveway and sidewalks (a good exercise for my shoulder), and worked up a good sweat. DH and I have both noticed that I'm slowing down again. This symptom of Parkinson's is called Bradykinesia, and it's my main problem, both with my legs, hands, and my digestive tract.

Cortisone Shot Again

I went yesterday and got another cortisone shot in my right knee, and I can already tell that it's beginning to help. The Orthopedist says he doesn't like to do them more often than every 3 months, so that gives me some idea of how long I would need to wait until I could have it done again. I was doing OK on this last shot, until I did too much packing of stuff of Daddy's, which involved squatting down. That's just something I can't do anymore, not only for the knee's sake, but also for other problems I'm having. I'll just have to do all the other exercises for my knee that the Physical Therapist gave me, and leave that type of exercise out of my routine.

It's just too hot to walk at the track right now, with 103 yesterday. Even at 5:00AM it's just too hot and the air quality is too poor to be out there, so we're exercising in the house to some videos. Well, hubby is following the video, and I'm bouncing very carefully on the mini trampoline at the same time.

I noticed a vague nausea last night after supper again. The same thing happened night before last, but I'm not sure where that's coming from. The Amitiza I've just started on is bad about that, so that may be what's going on, or it could be the elimination problem I'm having causing it.

The steroids always make me not sleep, even before I had trouble with insomnia, so I managed the C-pap until about 1:00AM and then I just couldn't get back to sleep with it on. I was pleased I got by with it that long, knowing how the steroids do me. I will get used to this thing ... I will get used to it!! Just have to keep telling myself that, and take each day at a time.

Sleep Continues to Be Scarce

The insomnia is continuing to bother me just about like it has been for several months now. I'm still having constipation problems, too. I've been on the Miralax continually now, but when I had to stop taking the Zelnorm, it began to gradually give me trouble again. I've been using the glycerin suppositories regularly now for the last week, but the problem isn't resolved yet. I'm already on a Metamucil capsule every day, besides the Miralax, so I hate to add any more oral medicine for it, for fear it will suddenly work too well. The only other Parkinson's thing that is going on with me right now is a very stiff neck. I have had like a crick in my neck now for several days, from a very tight muscle, that I just don't seem to be able to stretch out or limber up. I'll just have to keep exercising it, and hope for the best.

We had an absolutely glorious drizzly rain all day long yesterday, and I thank God for that. We need about a week of that kind of rain to make a dent in our drought situation, but it's better than nothing. Our grass finally looks like grass again.

They are supposed to come finish the garage tomorrow, but it looks like it might be raining. That's OK. We need the rain worse than we need the garage to be finished. We need to put another coat of water sealer down on the garage floor, anyway, before we start putting stuff in it.

Once we can use the garage for storage, we'll start bringing the furniture that our DD does not want to keep from their house down here. Also, we have stuff in our basement that we can't get to because it's in such a mess. Once we have a place to store it elsewhere, we can start emptying the basement of things and get the good stuff out of our way temporarily. Then we're going to have to make several trips to the dump!! We used to have a landfill dump here in our town, but it was moved to the other side of the county a long time ago.

That wouldn't have been so bad, but our town garbage collectio