Mouth Spasms Still a Problem Sometimes

I have had a couple of days since the great improvement that have not been as pleasant as most have been, and yesterday was one of them. It starts out innocently enough, with a little mouth movement in the mornings. But as the day progresses the twitches get harder and harder.

I have tried relaxation techniques, getting busy and trying to ignore it, and chewing gum, but once the twitch starts I don't seem to be able to get it stopped. By the end of the day my whole face aches from the constant muscle spasms. The same thing happened late July 4th Holiday and all day Saturday, which I attributed to just being tired from all the family celebration and noise. But yesterday has no explanation.

When I tried to go to sleep I became aware of small muscle tensions and aches here and there all over my body, and I had one of the worst foot cramp episodes I have had in some time. Not only the toes, but also the arch went into full spasm, and it took pushing with a lot of pressure to get it stopped. I had to get back up and stand on my tiptoes as best I could to get rid of it.

Luckily I am sleeping well now, so once I was asleep it went away. Our bodies are naturally paralyzed in our sleep, so it gives some relief from the spasms. My mouth is behaving itself this morning, thank goodness. I can only hope that it continues to stay calm.

I am beginning to use an exercise/relaxation tape every other day now. I do pretty well with the upright exercises, but I am just pitiful on the floor. It's all I can do to get down there and back up, let alone do the stretches. But I try. Then when I do get back up it takes me a good bit of moving around to stop the cramps in the tendons at the upper thigh. My whole body is clamped down tighter than a drum, and it's going to take some doing to get any flexibility back. One day at a time, being a little more active each day and increasing my range of motion slowly, is the only way I know how to do it.

Even though the mouth problem and the foot cramps are very painful and aggravating, I am still so much better than I was that there is no comparison. I continue to be so thankful for my vast improvement and remain optimistic.

Half Pill More of Primidone is Working Just Fine

I hesitated to start taking more of the Primidone for the very first time on our Date Day, just in case it left me loopy, but I decided to take a chance. It was just this sort of extra exercise that made the Primidone wear off faster in the afternoon. I had no problem with it at all. Our very first Estate Sale involved a long walk up a steep driveway to get to the house, and yet I was still steady yesterday evening. So that appears to be the correct dose for me right now. As I gradually increase my activity level, I may have to adjust it again. but for now - it's great!!

I'm still bubbling over such great news and wonderful relief from the jerks, shakes, and twitches. Hubby has been teasing me about how much I'm talking now. He drawls, "It sure was quiet around here," and sounds just like my Daddy - always finding some way to say something negative. He is teasing, and we both laugh every time he says it. It's a shame my Daddy never learned to look on the bright side of things, but I learned my lesson well from him and don't want to ever be that way.

And now I really do have something positive to shout from the rooftops!!! God has blessed me with a wonderful new lease on life, and I can't give Him praises enough!

Praise GOD from Whom All BLESSINGS Flow!!!

I really am doing great, and it's wonderful to be able to say that. Some days I don't have any abnormal movements at all, and on others I have only tolerable ones. I have been on cloud nine now for a couple of weeks, and it looks like I'm here to stay.

I have noticed that as I become more active and expend more muscle effort that the medicine wears off sooner in the evenings. The Movement Disorder doctor said to call him back in two weeks, and he would discuss raising the daytime dose maybe a half pill at that time. Sounds good to me. He just doesn't want me to zombie out on the Primidone, and I don't want that, either. He mentioned physical therapy to help with the slow walking, but that just does not seem necessary to me. I know how to be safe, and as I feel better I am naturally increasing my physical activity. I'm so used to listening to what my body is telling me that I can judge pretty well when it's time to quit.

My house certainly appreciates the extra attention I have been able to give it lately! There's plenty more to do, though. I have about two years of clutter to wade through. When you feel as bad as I have and as unsteady as I have it's just easier and safer to ignore a lot. Hubby has kept us in good meals and clean clothes, but the "stuff" has piled up.

We celebrated our 44th Wedding Anniversary yesterday. I wrote a long post about it on our Yesterday's Memories blog, so I won't repeat that here. The fantastic thing is that even though I was exhausted at night from all we did during the day the last two days, I feel fine today. My muscles are definitely adjusting to more activity.

So I leave this post with a positive outlook and a heart full of thanksgiving!! Whooopppieeeeeeeeee!!!

On Days - Off Days

I am definitely less depressed since gradually cutting the dose and frequency of the Clonazepam, but it has not been very predictable. Thursday I went until sometime after 5:00PM without any facial tics at all, and then spent the whole evening jerking like crazy. when I'm like that, my face contorts, my left shoulder jerks forward, and my foot dances a jig uncontrollably. I was on a half pill only at night then. Friday I jerked and twitched all day long, also on the half pill dose. I also had a huge startle reflex while we were out on our Date Day, something I haven't done to that extent in some time. Now today, Saturday, my mouth is all quiet and well behaved so far. I did not take even the half pill of the Clonazepam last night.

I had called twice to UAB, trying to get them to go on and send in the prescription for an alternative to the Clonazepam, because our drugstore would be closed from Friday evening until Tuesday. They did not get it called in, nor did I get a callback from a member of Dr. Watt's team. The receptionist did tell me on my second call that Dr. D was sick. He is the member of the team who apparently is the one I will be seeing the most. So, I have to assume that is why nothing was taken care of.

I have found that I can at least mask what my mouth is doing in public by chewing sugar free gum. I've always been a gum smacker, so I am trying to get out of that habit, and reach a point were I can slowly chew and control the horrible twisting, twitching, and jerks my mouth does so much.

The right foot continues to do its own little dance, which makes me feel unstable as I stand still or walk. Going up and down steps is harder when there is no way of knowing what my foot is going to do at the moment. So I am still using the cane everywhere except here in the house and at church. The few steps I have to deal with at church are entrances, and hubby is there with me going in and out, so I can skip the cane and feel a little more inconspicuous.

I should have taken the last dose of the Clonazepam last night, but I thought it would be wiser to see how I would be today, rather than being even more unpredictable than usual for church tomorrow morning. Since I've been OK today, it looks like the decreasing dosing was done slowly enough to not leave any withdrawal symptoms. But there is now way of knowing how I will be in the next minute, let alone tomorrow for church.

I continue to stay busy searching and posting on our Lost Toy blog, and have been able to help quite a few families, thanks to all the folks who read the requests for help and search for them, too. If you have never been to that blog, you ought to go read some of the stories and try to help them. It's a very satisfying feeling to help them. And I continue to add to our online Plush Toy catalog, too, so I stay very busy.

Oh, and I mustn't forget to mention that it looks like our Centipede grass is actually beginning to come up in the composted side yard. I worked for a little while this morning in between the shrubs and the driveway, digging that section up and trying to get as many of the weeds out of that section as I can. We can plant Centipede here until July, so I should have it ready long before then.

Take each moment as it comes, Rosemary - a lesson I am being taught daily.

Weaning Off Clonazepam = Thinking More Positively

I'm down to a half tablet at night now, starting today. I will stay on that for three days, and then I will be through with it. I sense the depression passing somewhat, but certainly not all of it. I was depressed before they put me on it, just not as much.

I've been trying to work off as much of my tension and fears in the yard the last few days. I've spread the rich composted "dirt" and planted Centipede seed there. I don't know if any of it will grow, but the weeds are sure enjoying the rich dirt. I can't very well pull the weeds, as the grass is still germinating. The idea is to let the growing grass choke out the weeds on its own. Since that section of the yard is pretty much finished, I've moved to a small section of grass at the front of the house. I'm wetting it down at night and then working on digging all the grass weeds out of it the next day. The hoeing is very therapeutic. It's kind of like a punching bag for me.

My biggest problem right now is that I can't get out in the yard without setting off a poison ivy outbreak, no matter how hard I try to stay away from it and bathe as soon as I come in. I've been super itchy now for some time, because I don't want to take any antihistamines on top of the Clonazepam.

I've been trying to read about Tardive Dyskinesia, which certainly seems to fit what I look like these days. I can't even spell it right half the time, but Google very nicely suggests how to spell it for me. If that's it, then I can add TD to my list of acronyms.

My mouth is definitely jerking and twisting more as the Clonazepam dosage is reduced in my system, but they have told me that there are other prescriptions they will try to reduce the tics and jerks, once I'm off this med. And I've started chewing sugarless gum a lot, too, as that keeps my mouth busy. I chewed so long last night I made my jaw hurt, but at least I didn't have my mouth pulling to the side and twisting all around. I will definitely be using this trick in public, as I am extremely self conscious about the way my face looks now.

Our wonderful pharmacist has printed out all the prescriptions I have been on since he opened his store some years ago. I haven't yet tried to track down where my records would be stored from the previous drugstore, but he suggested I try the CVS in a nearby town. We went without a drugstore at all for quite awhile there, as the previous pharmacist gave up his store to work for CVS. I haven't called yet, because it is likely a waste of time. But I will call. I'll just have to be in the mood to do it.

I've tried researching every medicine that I can remember ever being on, and a few are possible causes. But there's nothing to be done, other than try to deal with the symptoms. Tardive means it's a delayed reaction, so there is no med to "stop taking" to make the movements go away. Our family has always joked that an aspirin will put me to sleep, so I suppose it's not surprising that I would be one who had a delayed side effect to some medicine I've taken in the past.

I haven't been going to the Parkinson's forum. I just don't know what to say there any more. I guess I would still qualify for membership, since I'm dealing with a Movement Disorder of some kind, but I just don't feel like I fit right now.

Hubby has been a big help, and isn't mad at me any more about my reaction to the doctor's news. He's such a sweetie, and I know all this has been really hard on his emotions, too. I don't know what I would do without him.

I ran across a copy of Michael J. Fox's book, Lucky Man, at a yard sale not long ago, and I finished reading it last night. There were several things in it that made me feel better about myself. He talked about all the things he did to make his early tremors stop - how he tricked his brain - so he could hide it from the television and movie audience. That process of being able to temporarily stop a tremor with little mind and body tricks is one reason I thought I was suffering from a psychosomatic illness. I did not realize that at least some people with PD can consciously stop tremors momentarily. I have feared from the very beginning that being able to stop them for a brief while meant mine were not "real."

So, as it stands now, I don't have Peripheral Neuropathy, and there's no way of knowing if I ever did or not. I'm inclined to think I did, but all the super nutritious foods we have been eating for the last two years, plus the Turmeric and all the vitamins and minerals I take, just healed the nerve pathways.

Parkinson's is likely not the problem, although I have not ruled it out completely, as the doctor's always hedge what they say about that. I do have a Movement Disorder of some kind, and I am getting past the point of blaming it on myself. That's a good thing!!

Reading Fox's book helped me, so I hope that reading this blog can help someone, too.

Choking Episode

I'm still feeling remarkably well, considering it's been weeks now since I took a PD med. Reading a post on PLM makes me think it's at least in part due to the 6-8 cups of green tea I'm drinking most days. Taking the Turmeric and eating a lot of the Super Foods, mostly raw, probably has a lot to do with it, too.

I'm doing my neck exercises each morning, using the cervical collar daily for about 15 minutes, and using the TENS when I need it, so I'm not hurting much, either.

But I did have another choking episode this morning. It's a little hard to explain. I've done it several times lately with my own saliva, but this morning I had a mouth full of tea when a tiny amount just slipped down the wrong way. I wasn't really swallowing, either. That's what has been happening with saliva, too. I may not know how it's happening, but I sure know the results! I end up coughing and gagging for several minutes each time, and it hurts. I'm going to have to try to figure out exactly what is happening, so I can decide the best way to prevent it.

Other than that, I'm feeling fine. I worked really hard on our collectibles and toy inventory yesterday, and pretty well wore myself out, trying to get it stored in a more logical and organized way. But it was good exercise, and I'm glad I was able to do it. I also added another pile to the lasagna compost. That is slowly building up an area of rich material about 100 square feet or so and over a foot high. I haven't done any walking or Tai Chi for some time, and I do need to get back to it, now that I'm feeling better.

There was a good explanation of voice exercises on PLM, too, so I guess I'll try to add those exercises to my daily routine, too.

And, to finish this post on a positive note, neither one of us have a single doctor's appointment this whole month!!!

Still Doing Pretty Well

I'm still off the PD meds, and I just updated my Profile on PLM. My PDRS score, which is a way of quantifying symptoms, is better than it was a month ago. Of course it's still a very crude way to put a score on something that really can't be scored. If you've ever had to tell a nurse or doctor how you rate your pain on a 1 to 10 scale, then you know what I mean.

Church is still hard on me, as the pews are not comfortable for me now. They should be, as they have a very good cushion, but the space between pews is narrow, and the backs are hard. Turning to look at the preacher while he speaks still aggravates my neck, too.

I've stopped using the TEN's until I can talk to the Physical Therapist. They told me not to put it anywhere near my heart, which makes perfect sense. But there have been several times when I would get what felt like a pulsing muscle pull where my heart is in front, when I have the electrodes near the bottom of my shoulder blade. That would put the electricity near the back side of my heart as near as I can figure. So, I'm doing without it for now.

The cervical collar and the exercises seem to be helping, at least.

I have noticed several times in the last few days that I had had a painful burning sensation at different places on my feet. When I grab the place and rub it out, the place goes numb for a little while. I'm guessing that the PD meds have been blocking some of the Peripheral Neuropathy pain that is common with that problem.

I'm in the process of checking out a new laptop I bought this weekend. It was an open box item, so I only have 14 days to be sure there is nothing wrong with it. Plus, it came from a big chain store who had put all kinds of software on it advertising their company. It even had a user with a password they hadn't bothered to tell me about. I got around that by reinstalling the original disks. But now, I'm still uninstalling all that junk the computer manufacturer lets various software companies fill the computer with.

Most people probably pay the store to get the computer ready to use, but I enjoy the challenge. Fiddling with computers has always been enjoyable to me, but the most pleasure these days comes from the absolutely wonderful feeling hubby and I both get when we can help one of the families who have told their story on our Plush Memories Lost Toy Search Service blog find a lost lovey. And, to do that, I have to have a computer. So, to get the best thing - helping people - I get to do the next best thing - working on my computer.

So, I continue to watch how my body is behaving, and working on the computer, too.

Odd Physical Therapy Today

I went to PT this morning, and they did start me on some exercises, all for my arms. The first few were fairly easy, but then she had me pushing down with what seemed like more resistance than the others were set for. I stopped at the first set of ten on that one, instead of doing two sets of ten the way I had done all the others.

Then I moved to the pulley rope, which I've done before with other therapy, and it's always fairly easy, unless you just can't raise your arms. I had no trouble with that at all. Problems came when I stood up from that one, though.

I woke up this morning trembling more than usual, and getting into the cold car this morning just made it worse. And then I did all this new exercising on top of that. I guess everything just worked together to bring major big time tremors in my legs and arms, all at the same time. I was frozen in place, unable to move, because I was just not in control at the moment. The Aide immediately pulled a chair over for me, and I didn't do any more exercises. They hovered over me for awhile, with me assuring them that I was OK, that it would ease off on its own, that there wasn't anything they could do, and I really was OK.

After I convinced them that I was not going to fall, they moved me to the room where they do the ultrasound and heat therapy with the TENS machine, and everything went as usual. About half way through all that, the tremors settled down to just the usual quiver in my right arm and leg.

The only thing I can think of is that using the machine that was apparently set with too much resistance for me to handle just used up the dopamine I had available for a little while. It will be interesting to see if I can find anything to agree or disagree with my hypothesis.

It's been a shaky afternoon, and I just gave in to my chocolate craving - that's my way to deal with stress, as any chocoholic will tell you. And my neck is sore, but not painful, from the exercise. But at least I'm walking around about like usual - maybe a little shakier, but not much.

She told me I have 3 more visits before I have to see the Orthopedist again, so I need to make that appointment. I should have done it today, but I'm in one of those procrastinating moods today, and I just didn't feel like doing it. These moods don't make any sense, but I get into them every once in awhile. Things that happen like this morning seem to bring this apathy on, like everything is just too much trouble. It's stupid, I know, but it's just the way I get at times. I'll snap out of it, just as the shakes finally stopped. Just takes a little time.

Tomorrow is Date Day, and it will be a better day. I'm sure of it!

First Physical Therapy Session

I went back to the same PT I have used before, and I was fortunate enough to get the same therapist. She asked lots of questions about what brought on the stiff and painful neck. She manipulated my head, and we chatted a bit about how my diagnosis got undiagnosed. I gave her the link to Patients Like Me, and I hope she takes me up on the invitation to join.

She seems to think that the electrical stimulation (TENS) and ultrasound will help these muscles relax, and she expects to do some stretching exercises on Friday. Bless her heart, but she remembered that Friday was our Date Day, and apologized for messing it up. But DH will be fine with that, as this is only for a few weeks.

We did something this afternoon we have never done before. I made a smoothie! Hubby bought me a blender for Christmas, because I had said something about wanting to try some. I mixed a banana, raw spinach, a little parsley, some soy milk, and a touch of honey, and we both tried it. It wasn't half bad, and we both drank it all. Not bad at all for my first attempt.

It always makes me feel better when I feel like I am taking control of a situation, and getting the PT started and learning a way to improve our nutrition is a good start for one day. Yippeeee!

This is a Hard Post to Write

I saw my Neurologist yesterday, and it turns out I did have good reason to be apprehensive about the appointment.

First of all, he agreed that I did not have any business having the epidurals on my cervical vertebrae. So, I called my Orthopedist to let them know that they could schedule the Physical Therapy, but not the epidurals. They called back later, and have already faxed the prescription to the PT I used last time, which is close to home. So, hopefully, I will be getting some relief from the neck pain and stiffness soon. Holidays, of course, will be in the way of a regular schedule, so who knows when I will actually start the sessions. It could easily be the beginning of next year.

He also took me off of the Levadopa/Carbidopa plus Lodosyn meds that the ER doc had added to my treatment, since it didn't seem to be helping much at all. Taking too much of these meds can cause dyskinesia, which is involuntary movements. That may be why I had such an odd tremor develop of late, plus all the facial and tongue tics I have been experiencing.

But the news from the exam that has me so upset right now is that he is no longer sure I have Parkinson's. He watched me walk, and I was so nervous by then that he got to see me at my worst. Both legs bobbing up and down like I was trying to walk across the floor of one of those carnival blow up bounce machines, and having to hold out my arms to the sides to keep my balance. Turning around and coming back towards him was just as bad. He had me take off my socks and shoes, and he did all the usual hitting with the hammer. He scraped the bottom of each foot, and also suddenly pushed both feet straight up several times, in a slapping kind of motion.

I have had the foot scrape thing done many times before, and I know what that was testing me for - the Babinski effect. That's a test I failed some years ago when I was seeing a different Neurologist for migraine headaches. As far as I know I have not failed it since then. It has to do with the way your toes curl or straighten out when a hard object is scraped from the heel towards the toes. The normal reflex is to curl the toes inward. If the toes spread out, with the big toe stretching upward, it's a sign of a lower extremity nerve problem. I don't know if I passed it this time or not. He didn't say, and I was too upset to ask. I have tried to look up what the sudden slapping of my feet upward meant, as I have never had that done to me before, but I haven't been able to come up with the right search terms yet to find out what that was all about. He did move my arms around, while I kept them relaxed, and said he did not feel any cog wheeling. That's something he would expect to find if I had Parkinson's, and he has said in the past that he did feel it. It has something to do with the tremors, but that's about all I know about cog wheeling.

They have made an appointment for me with the Chair of the Neurology Department at the University of Alabama in Birmingham. He is the Movement Disorder Specialist in this area, and is supposed to be my best chance of finding out what is wrong with me. Parkinson's effects people in so many different ways, it may yet turn out to be the PD that my Neuro had initially diagnosed.

But for now, he has listed my diagnosis as the Peripheral Neuropathy plus Gait Debility. I'm back to that "not knowing" stage, and it is extremely upsetting for me, and for my dear sweet hubby. Of course, as you might expect with the chair of the department, I can't get an appointment until the end of April. That's going to be a long, long wait that is not going to be easy.

I felt such relief when my Neuro put a name to what was happening to me - even if it was that I had Parkinson's. Now I am in limbo again, and I hate it.

Hubby has asked that I stop reading and researching about Parkinson's for awhile, just to be sure that I have not been subconsciously absorbing the symptoms that I was reading about. That's a fair request, so I have said a temporary goodbye to my Parkie friends on PatientsLikeMe, and will not be doing any PD research for awhile. I am going to continue to try to find out more about Peripheral Neuropathy, though, because there is no doubt that I have that. Unlike Parkinson's, there are definitive tests for PN, which I most definitely have.

I don't know how to adequately explain how I am feeling about all this right now. It's almost as if I found out I was adopted, or something like that. It's like my identity has been ripped to shreds, if that makes sense. I have developed some really close friendships with some wonderful PWP over the last year. Now, with one sentence, my Neuro has put the nature of that relationship in limbo.

This NOT KNOWING stage I am in again is very hard to deal with. I am vacillating between being scared of something worse than Parkinson's, and being relieved that it could be something less progressive in nature than PD.

God is forever trying to teach me patience, and reliance on Him, rather than my own abilities. Looks like He is working on that big time right now. We haven't actually said anything out loud, but I think hubby and I are going to keep this turn of events to ourselves for now. I can't see any good reason to add this uncertainty to our children's lives. They have enough to worry about on their own. So, I will pour out my feelings here on my blog, since no one who knows me personally ever reads it.

Two Ruptured Cervical Disks - No Wonder I'm Hurting!

I talked with my Orthopedist's PA the other day, and she confirmed what I already knew. The disks are bulging on the two cervical vertebrae that are degenerating, and that's what is causing the pain and stiffness. She doesn't want to make an anesthesiologist appointment to get an epidural there until I have a chance to talk to my Neurologist. I see him Wednesday. I did ask that she talk to my Neuro's nurse, rather than expect me to relay messages. It seems that the ER did not send any information to him about my time in the ER in September, when I had the horrible drug interaction with a steroid shot. So his nurse was completely surprised to hear I had a bad reaction.

So, we'll be going to the hospital to sign the release form to get the records to take to my Neuro.

I continue to be concerned and in prayer for several Parkie buddies on the PatientsLikeMe site, who have been diagnosed with skin cancers. One has Melanoma, and the other has Squamous Cell Cancer. Both were caught early, with every reason to believe they will be just fine. We are all praying for their recovery.

There is another woman on there who's brother also has PD, who had unrelated surgery, and to quote her - "his brain is mush." She said he has already tried to leave the hospital. When I thought I was going to have to have surgery back a few months ago, I learned all kinds of scary things about how difficult it is for PWP to have any kind of anesthesia without serious side effects. Also, it is very difficult to get hospitals to keep the PD meds coming on time. And that can mean the difference between being mobile and thinking normally, and not.

I wore my new "Sunday" shoes today, and I really like them. They help with my balance, they feel good on, and they are unobtrusive. I doubt if anyone has even noticed that I'm not wearing dress shoes. I don't feel the least bit self conscious in them, so if someone has noticed them - I don't care.

I am having one problem, though, that came unexpectedly. Last night I noticed a red itchy place on my wrist where the back of the Timex watch is against my skin. I had noticed that the skin was getting slick and shiny there a couple of weeks ago, so I started taking it off at night to go to sleep. Evidently I didn't heed the warning in time, as I now have a nice round ringworm there. It's been holding too much moisture against my skin, as it is fairly tight. It's a big man size watch, and not particularly comfortable, but I was willing to tolerate it, because it is so helpful. I may end up taking the band off, and just keeping it in my pocket.

I have not been able to do much exercising for the last month, partly because of my neck, but mostly because my DH over did it and his Sciatica is acting up again. I've been so busy working on the requests on our Plush Memories blog that I have been sitting still more than I probably should be. I've not been doing the Tai Chi, either. I know I really need to get back with a scheduled exercise program, the way I was before.

So, some things improve, while other new aggravations begin. Not so different than what happens to everyone, right?

Neck Pain and Tremors Causing Problems

I'm having two main problems from the Parkinson's right now - my very stiff and painful neck, and the much increased tremors, particularly in my right foot.

I'm sleeping with a very soft neck pillow, the kind that look like a C, and I keep it behind my neck while I sit at the computer, too. That helps me get to sleep and cuts down on the pain of just holding my head up. As the day goes on, the pain is getting worse and worse.

I am waiting to hear from my Orthopedist now about a standing MRI appointment. Hubby has Jury Duty next week, so that means I will have to wait longer to get it done. Can't be helped, but it's frustrating. He had to ask for a deferral back when we were taking care of Daddy, so he can't very well ask for another one because he is taking care of me. There is absolutely no way I could drive myself to the big city, as long as it's been since I've driven at all, even though I am no longer having the sudden sleep attacks. Maybe, if he is lucky, he won't have to serve for long, and I can get it done toward the end of this week. I sure hope so. The Methacarbamol and Mobic aren't helping enough to warrant taking the pills, so I quit taking them.

I've tried to continue with as much exercise as possible, but DH hurt his back again several weeks ago, and his sciatic nerve is acting up. He hasn't felt like going to the track, so I haven't been getting enough exercise lately. I am still working out in the yard the best I can, but it makes my neck hurt worse.

I'm also having considerably more problems due to tremors. For the first year of PD I didn't have any tremors at all. I was beginning to have small ones on Sundays mostly, while we were listening to the sermon. I finally decided that it was the uncomfortable pews, being too still too long, and being cold, all working together to stress my muscles. But that was a very mild nuisance tremor.

Since I had the steroid interaction that sent me to the ER, however, the tremor in my right leg and foot have been so strong that it makes walking and standing much more difficult. It still comes and goes, but when I get the least bit tired, as I do when I walk very much, that leg starts dancing a jig all on its own. I am having more problems with balance because of it, and I am beginning to experience what is called freezing. When I stand up, I have to kind of wait before I can get that pesky right foot to make up its mind to move where I want it to, it's so busy moving where it wants to.

One thing's for sure, I look like I have Parkinson's now, where I didn't until recently. Even my lips, tongue, and eyebrows are beginning to quiver. We had our portraits made the other day to give to our children for Christmas, and it was all I could do to hold the poses long enough to get a good picture. My face behaved, but not my leg. It took every bit of will power I had to make my leg be still. If I hold my breath and really concentrate, I can stop the tremors momentarily, thank goodness. I had to do that to get the X-rays on my neck done a couple of weeks ago, too.

So, things have been a little difficult lately, but I am still managing OK. I've been listing a lot on eBay, and we have had some good sales there. I've also been concentrating on trying to help as many people as I can on my Plush Memories blog. I've managed to find several lost lovies for people, and some of my blog readers there have found a few more. And, there have been a few times that we had the lovey they were looking for in stock, so I've made a few sales, and made some folks very happy all at the same time. That's what makes selling the plush toys so much fun.

We are still going to Estate Sales, but this time of year there usually aren't as many on a given Friday. That's OK, because I really can't manage more than a few anyway, as I tire out and hurt too much to go to very many. So, we have been doing a little bit of Estate Sale hunting and a little bit of Christmas shopping on Fridays. The only thing we absolutely have to go to stores for is all the Stocking Stuffer odds and ends that we give our children and grandchildren every year. And this year, we have been buying things for their stockings all year long, which is a blessing.

Thank goodness for Internet shopping! I've been buying most of our gifts online for years, but this year it has been a blessing. The black pair of Skechers came the other day, and I wore them to get our portraits made. They feel wonderful, and they do improve may stability much more than the Sunday shoes I have been wearing. Our daughters wear the same size shoes I do, so looks like they will be getting some hand me down shoes.

So, I keep going, making changes as I must.

Insurance Has APPROVED My Dental Appliance!!

I knew I was having a good day yesterday! When we came home from our Date Day, I had a lovely letter waiting for me, stating that the TAP Dental Appliance has been approved by my insurance for the treatment of my Sleep Apnea. I immediately called them to find out how to get my money back, as I had to pay my dentist for it up front. They are sending me the forms to take care of this. Whooopiieeeee!! I had anticipated some trouble with them agreeing that it was eligible, so that's something else I can cross off my list.

My neck is still very uncomfortable, but I made myself work on the compost heap this morning. I can't afford to give in to it, or I'll find myself able to do less and less.

I actually slept until my first medicine alarm went off this morning at 5:00AM! EIGHT HOURS OF SLEEP!!! That's the first time that has happened. I'm still waking up quite a bit in the night, but unlike before, I am able to drift back to sleep, even after I've been up to use the bathroom.

We ate at on of our favorite Mexican restaurants yesterday for lunch, but I was a good girl and got the Huevos Rancheros, which is nothing but sunny side up eggs with sauce on top. I scrape the sauce over to the side, eat the Spanish rice and the eggs, and just taste the refried beans. I did get a side order of the guacamole, which I really enjoy and finished off a bunch of the tostados they bring. I did NOT have the woozy feeling after lunch. So I'm pretty sure it's not protein that sets it off. It may be fat, though. I've basically been avoiding eating beef or pork for lunch. Most of the week we had the fake crab meat in a spinach and cabbage salad, and that does not cause the funny feeling, either.

I'm still having real problems with tremors and walking is not as easy, as I have this constant feeling of walking on Jello, because my legs are shaking the whole time I am walking. I'm using the cane just about any time we leave the house now, except for church. I'm trying to hold off using it there, because I get asked too many questions about how I'm doing. It makes me self conscious. I have started taking a lap robe to church, though, as I have come to realize that I have the hard tremors in church because I'm cold! I'll be making an appointment with the Neurologist next week, now that I've been on the new meds for awhile and the apnea and tummy are well under control.

Our older daughter and her hubby are going to do the honors for Thanksgiving Dinner this year. They both love to cook, which I never did, and this is their first holiday in their new home. I've always been the one to have the Thanksgiving meal, but I'm very happy to pass this tradition along to her, and just help out with the expense. Hopefully our younger daughter and her family will be able to come, too. With me not having to do anything for dinner, I can really enjoy the day.

So, things continue to come to good conclusions, and I remain optimistic. May we all have a great day today!!

Some Things Better, Progress with Others

I've been busy the last few days trying to get used to the TAP and regulating my meds and diet to try to deal with the colon problems I've had for well over a year now. The TAP dental appliance is doing as well as I would expect. I slept about 7 hours last night, which is a huge improvement for me. I am still waking up a couple of times in the night to go to the bathroom, though, so it's not yet a completely restful sleep. It's time for me to make an appointment for a new Sleep Study, to see if the device is handling my Apnea appropriately. That will be the determining factor on whether I can get my insurance to pay for the TAP or not, and whether it's worth using.

I am pleased to see that there is a way to use the TAP device as the anchoring mechanism for a CPAP mask, if it becomes necessary to go back on that. A nasal pillow delivery system can be attached directly to the dental appliance, so there would be no straps or mask all over my face. That's encouraging, as it means I can look forward to either getting by with just the TAP, or the TAP plus CPAP - but NO MASK!!! So, I'm very optimistic about the coming Sleep Study.

As for the elimination situation, I am somewhat improved, although certainly not where I would like to be. I'm still belching and having gas problems, but not having as much trouble actually going to the bathroom as I was. So, the Acidophilus, the Bentyl prescription, and an extra Metamucil capsule a day seem to be the right plan of attack for that problem.

DH and I have been searching for some practical ways for me to keep track of all my pills, the dosing times, and a way to effectively keep me on schedule. I seem to have some kind of Freudian aversion to remembering to take my pills. I hate having to take so much medicine, and I think it's causing some kind of passive aggressive reaction that I'm going to have to overcome. We've taken some positive steps to get over this hump. We bought two Plano tool/fishing tackle boxes, each with 4 storage boxes in it. That gives me enough boxes for 8 days, so I can make up meds once a week and have a spare. Right now I am taking medicine at 12 different times a day, so I put a numbered sticker in the bottom of each little compartment, with the dosing time on it. I can take the small box for one day with me wherever I go fairly easily. I even found that I could use my Bible cover to "hide" my pills on Sunday. I just carried my Bible loose and put the pill box in where the Bible would have been. I have to take a dose between Sunday School and Church, so this worked nicely.

Getting me on a dependable schedule was the next problem to handle. I searched for days all over the Internet, looking for pill reminder systems that I thought would work for me. Most would not give enough alarms to suit my needs, or any PWP's needs, for that matter. PWP tend to take our meds closer and closer to each other as the disease progresses, so it's not unusual for a Parkie to be taking something every hour during the day, and even getting up in the night to take something. Also, some of the more promising systems only allowed you to set pill reminders from say 8:00AM to midnight, and my first pill is at 5:00 AM.

So, I ended up buying a Timex Ironman Data Link watch, which can be connected to the computer via USB. It's like having a PDA on your wrist. It came yesterday, but I have been studying everything I could find about it while I waited for it to come, and I had my pill schedule all ready to send to the watch. It worked like a charm. It beeps and the face lights up and flashes for several seconds, and the names of the pills I need to take scroll across the watch face. If I don't push a button on the watch, I get another reminder in 5 minutes. Since I'll be wearing it, I'm much more likely to heed the reminder. I also have the reminders set up on Outlook, since the computer is on all day long, anyway.

The watch needs to be quite large, as you might expect, so it's the size of a man's sports watch. I don't mind that, if it keeps me from forgetting a pill, as I have been prone to do. For now, it's in my pocket, because I'm going to have some links taken out of the band. There's a lot to learn about this watch, but the main thing for me was the Alarm mode, as it allows up to 200 alarms a day! And that was super easy to get up and running.

My tremors still remain, not as bad as they were when I went to the ER, but still enough to make me feel like I'm trying to walk on Jello, and it gets worse as I get tired later on in the day. I use the walls and the furniture here in the house to steady myself, and I have managed to do without my cane at church, by the hardest. But anywhere else we go, like our Date Day, or to go out to eat, I'm using the cane. The hand tremors are also more prominent, and don't seem to ever go away completely, but I can handle a fork and spoon OK, and type, so I can live with that.

My biggest problem has been the odd about to pass out feeling I've been getting after lunch and supper, but not breakfast. We've checked my blood pressure during a couple of these attacks, and it's always low, like 98/58 low. I can't do much but sit very still and wait for the feeling to pass. I have found that eating something sweet makes me feel better, but that may just be because it's a comfort food for me. Or, it may means that this feeling is from a low blood sugar situation, rather than a low blood pressure one.

We may have narrowed it down to being an interaction between the Sinemet and the protein in my meals. Yesterday, just as a test, I had a vegetable lunch without any meat, and I did not have the weird feeling later on. So, I'll try that again for a few days, and see what happens.

Dear sweet hubby took over the compost making task for me for the last couple of weeks, but I did it all by myself this morning. I'm very tired, but feeling good that I was able to accomplish it. I'm also sweeping off parts of the driveway almost daily now, and the deck and patio underneath every once in awhile. That gives my arms and shoulders a good workout, and it's good for my balance, too. I'm also using the trekking poles the whole time at the track now, where I usually do 3 laps, and then the leg exercises and my Tai Chi. My balance is still way off, so the Tai Chi looks pretty ragged, but I'm doing it anyway. After all, nobody but me knows just how pitiful my form is, right? ;)

So, I see progress with several areas of concern, but disappointment that I am in nowhere near as good a shape as I was before I had the Celestone shot that sent me to the ER.

I continue to try my best to live each day with a positive outlook, and I think the Bentyl has helped with the depression I was dealing with.

Cpap Adventure Continues

I've been on the new full face mask for a week now, with one extremely good night's sleep, night before last. I've been awake since 12:30AM today, though. I woke up with air just jetting out from under the bottom of the mask, where the silicon soft part had come out of the plastic part of the mask. By the time I woke up enough to realize what the problem was, and then fixed it, I was wide awake. I'm also continuing to have problems with my skin. I'm ready to try the all over the face kind. That's not supposed to irritate skin, as it fits at the hairline and all around the face completely. This is the last style there is, basically, so I'm about to run out of options, other than not use it at all. That 8 hours of sleep on Sunday night gave me such high hopes, too.

I continue to struggle with terrible gas, and I'll be calling my Gastro's nurse today to report in. Stopping the Amitiza just didn't help any. Nothing has really changed as far as feeling like something is wrong with my elimination process, either.

We walked at the track again yesterday morning, after several days off. This time it was due to DH having some pains, as I think he over did it when we started back walking the other day. Hopefully, he'll be OK this morning, and we can get our walk in. I also worked in the yard early yesterday morning, putting another pile in the Lasagna Compost area and digging around the foundation of our new garage. We need to get a drainage ditch around the front edge, so I'm hoeing just a little bit each day. I'm also trying to sweep off the driveway every day or so, as that is good exercise for my shoulders. It sure does feel funny, though, trying to sweep left handed. But I need to exercise both shoulders, so I do it, funny feeling or not. And boy, am I right sided. I'm pitiful trying to sweep "backwards". LOL

I've been doing more research, trying to see if there is anything I've missed about CPAP. I did find that I'm supposed to have the machine below head level, a fact that escaped me somehow. I didn't keep it on long enough last night to know if that would stop the "rain out", as it is called. That's when the humidifier in the machine causes condensation in the tubing, because the air in the room is cooler. I can't do without the moistened air, so I will need to deal with the condensation. It got so bad one night that it sounded like the thing was gargling!

I was also trying to find out of the machine is aggravating the gas I'm having, and yes, CPAP does often cause that, as many people swallow the air. It's supposed to be something you grow out of, and can be lessened by using the Ramp Up switch, which starts the pressure lower so you can go to sleep easier. I hadn't been using it, since going to sleep has never been my problem. But I did use it last night, and will from now on.

For all that I'm discouraged this morning, after so little sleep last night, I am still hopeful that I will adjust to the CPAP. I'm not so optimistic about my digestive system problem, though, and I am still wanting the colonoscopy. My legs and hands continue to be swollen with fluid, too. We'll see what the doctor has to say today.

Bits of This and That

I've been a good girl, and I've tried to use the C-Pap machine every night. I can only say try, because I'm still not using it all night long. I did manage to keep it on for 6 hours on Saturday night, and I thought I had it licked. Then last night I couldn't stand it past 1:30AM.

I'm pretty much used to the nose canula now, but the chin strap contraption is quite another matter. I'm going to call the tech again this morning for another appointment, since I only have another week before I'm stuck with whatever equipment I have after 30 days. I have Acne Rosacea, which normally is not a problem for me, as I quit wearing makeup, except for lipstick, many years ago. The reason I bring that up is that all these straps and bands is irritating my face. I'm starting to get red patches around my mouth where the chin strap is rubbing as I turn in the night. There are several other types of chin straps available, so I'm hoping she can find something else that I can use.

We're in the middle of a cold wave right now, with high temperatures in the 90's! So, DH got up this morning in the mood to go walking. We were out at the track at 5:15AM, and there were already people out there walking. It's really the only time of day that it's safe to be doing it right now. I did 3/4 mile, plus my knee and shoulder exercises, and the Tai Chi, while he did 2 miles. Not bad for the first time we've been there in several weeks. Of course, I've been walking around at home and working a little bit in the yard each morning, so I was not out of shape too badly. Maybe tomorrow I'll walk a mile, but I won't push it if I'm not ready. I learned that lesson really well.

The gas is still just as much a problem as it has been, and I'm supposed to call my Gastro this week to let him know how I'm doing. I'll wait a few more days, just in case DH's explanation is right. He thinks I need to give myself a few days for the colon to adjust after the GoLYTELY, and he's probably right.

I also noticed that the tremor in my hands is becoming more noticeable, and showing up more often. I've not had tremors up until recently. Balance wasn't so good yesterday, either. But I'm not in walking shoes on Sunday morning, and that could be it. I am wearing flats, with as much support as I could find, but I never feel as secure when I wear them. I'm not sure what I could wear that didn't look like athletic shoes, but I'm going to have to find something. Part of the problem right now is that I have more tissue swelling than I have been having. I've been on a diuretic for a long time, even before I was diagnosed with PD. But now, my fingers are so swollen that I can't completely close my fists. My ankles are badly swollen, too, and my weight is up, which I'm assuming is fluid.

So, I'm still dealing with lots of little problems, none of which, hopefully, are serious, but all are things that lesson my quality of life. I am thankful that I am in as good a shape as I am. Reading about all the problems that other PWP have makes me feel very blessed that I have a wonderful hubby to help me when I need it, and sympathize with me when I need that, too. I feel for those Parkies friends whose symptoms are so much more debilitating than mine are, and pray that they have a good day today.

Trying a Different C-Pap Mask

I took the c-pap stuff back to the supplier yesterday, and they have changed me to a very soft nasal "plug" that doesn't have nearly as much strapping all over my face as the nasal mask did. I slept 6 straight hours, without getting up at all. I can't remember how long it's been since I did that. It's not perfect, as my nostrils were sore this morning, and I can still feel the thing, even hours after it has been out. I've always had this odd thing where I could "feel" a hat long after I had taken it off, and this canula is doing the same thing.

I have hope now that I will adjust. The frustration I was feeling with the other face mask was really wearing me out. It's a good thing I don't cuss! LOL

I'm calling the Gastroenterologist today, as I want the colonoscopy for my peace of mind. I'm still not satisfied with my elimination situation. We took our kittens to the vet this morning, and I got light headed and had to sit down quickly, because we were standing, waiting for the vet to come in our treatment room. I blame that on my tummy, as I felt better after I excused myself and used their facilities.

I've started going out in our yard and working just as soon as it's daylight, as it's just too hot later on in the morning. So, my exercise routine is back on track, with walking and Tai Chi every day, plus working for a little while in the yard. By the time I come in around 7:00AM I'm drenched in sweat.

I'm definitely going to have to get my Neurologist to prescribe something to stop this excessive crying I'm doing. I broke out in blubbering at the c-pap office, trying to tell the tech how frustrated I was trying to adjust to the mask. I have learned that this is called emotional lability, and it is a PD side effect. He doesn't want to change my meds until I get the cpap and elimination situations settled, and that makes sense.

So, some things seem to be getting better, and others aren't.

In Wait and See Mode

The CPAP machine is getting a little bit easier to stand now, but I still haven't slept past 3:00AM with it on. That represents as much as 6 hours of sleep on a few nights, which is definitely better than before. I am having trouble keeping the chin strap on, as it is a soft band of stretchy material, with Velcro on the end. I need it because I am a mouth breather. Without it, I wake up with a sore throat and a dry mouth, as the forced air is being forced right down my throat.

So, I called the people that the CPAP machine came from, and we will take all the stuff into their office on Monday, and they'll see what they can do to help me.

So far, I'm not satisfied with the results of the Bowel Retraining routine the Gastroenterologist has me on, as I still have difficulty getting my muscles to work effectively. I'm to call him this next week to set up the colonoscopy, if I'm not satisfied with the results, so it looks like I may be scheduling that sometime soon.

So for the time being I'm in a state of limbo, just waiting for the right time to take care of things differently.

I have tried to get more exercise the last few days, but it has to be done at the crack of dawn, literally. I was outside walking around in the front, where the street light shines, at 5:30 this morning. It was already hot, but certainly bearable. I worked in the yard a bit, swept the driveway and sidewalks (a good exercise for my shoulder), and worked up a good sweat. DH and I have both noticed that I'm slowing down again. This symptom of Parkinson's is called Bradykinesia, and it's my main problem, both with my legs, hands, and my digestive tract.

Cortisone Shot Again

I went yesterday and got another cortisone shot in my right knee, and I can already tell that it's beginning to help. The Orthopedist says he doesn't like to do them more often than every 3 months, so that gives me some idea of how long I would need to wait until I could have it done again. I was doing OK on this last shot, until I did too much packing of stuff of Daddy's, which involved squatting down. That's just something I can't do anymore, not only for the knee's sake, but also for other problems I'm having. I'll just have to do all the other exercises for my knee that the Physical Therapist gave me, and leave that type of exercise out of my routine.

It's just too hot to walk at the track right now, with 103 yesterday. Even at 5:00AM it's just too hot and the air quality is too poor to be out there, so we're exercising in the house to some videos. Well, hubby is following the video, and I'm bouncing very carefully on the mini trampoline at the same time.

I noticed a vague nausea last night after supper again. The same thing happened night before last, but I'm not sure where that's coming from. The Amitiza I've just started on is bad about that, so that may be what's going on, or it could be the elimination problem I'm having causing it.

The steroids always make me not sleep, even before I had trouble with insomnia, so I managed the C-pap until about 1:00AM and then I just couldn't get back to sleep with it on. I was pleased I got by with it that long, knowing how the steroids do me. I will get used to this thing ... I will get used to it!! Just have to keep telling myself that, and take each day at a time.

Sleep Continues to Be Scarce

The insomnia is continuing to bother me just about like it has been for several months now. I'm still having constipation problems, too. I've been on the Miralax continually now, but when I had to stop taking the Zelnorm, it began to gradually give me trouble again. I've been using the glycerin suppositories regularly now for the last week, but the problem isn't resolved yet. I'm already on a Metamucil capsule every day, besides the Miralax, so I hate to add any more oral medicine for it, for fear it will suddenly work too well. The only other Parkinson's thing that is going on with me right now is a very stiff neck. I have had like a crick in my neck now for several days, from a very tight muscle, that I just don't seem to be able to stretch out or limber up. I'll just have to keep exercising it, and hope for the best.

We had an absolutely glorious drizzly rain all day long yesterday, and I thank God for that. We need about a week of that kind of rain to make a dent in our drought situation, but it's better than nothing. Our grass finally looks like grass again.

They are supposed to come finish the garage tomorrow, but it looks like it might be raining. That's OK. We need the rain worse than we need the garage to be finished. We need to put another coat of water sealer down on the garage floor, anyway, before we start putting stuff in it.

Once we can use the garage for storage, we'll start bringing the furniture that our DD does not want to keep from their house down here. Also, we have stuff in our basement that we can't get to because it's in such a mess. Once we have a place to store it elsewhere, we can start emptying the basement of things and get the good stuff out of our way temporarily. Then we're going to have to make several trips to the dump!! We used to have a landfill dump here in our town, but it was moved to the other side of the county a long time ago.

That wouldn't have been so bad, but our town garbage collection rules call for household garbage only. They won't pick up anything that won't fit in a garbage bag. So, over the years, as things broke, like the washing machine, it just got stuck in the basement. Now we can hardly move down there. Oh, and the nearest Thrift Store won't pick up the appliances, either. There are certain disadvantages to living out in the boonies, that's for sure.

DH won't let me go down in the basement, as he's afraid I will trip over something or lose my balance trying to walk around all the stuff. I really do think he's being over protective, but I've done as he asked, and stayed out of it. I'm itching to get it cleaned out, though, and it bothers me that I can't just go down there and work on it if I want to. As it is, I'm stuck with his idea of when it will get done, and his timetable is a lot slower than mine LOL!! C'est la vie. That's what being married is all about - the give and take of blending two different people's habits and problem solving techniques together. I just need to work on my patience a little more, that's all.

Blue Funk Is Now Fading

I don't seem to be quite as depressed as I was a few days ago, thank goodness. The money part of the estate is finally taken care of, so the only thing left to do is sell Daddy's car and finish emptying the house of all the furniture and stuff that our DD's don't want. I say "only" like that's not a big deal, but there's a bunch of stuff to get out of our older DD's way. We did bring Daddy's car down to our house yesterday, so at least they can move things out to the garage now that are in their way. We didn't want to do that while all the construction delivery trucks and workers' vehicles were going in and out of our yard.

We put Thompson's Water Seal on the garage floor day before yesterday, and it soaked it up like a sponge. We have to wait until tomorrow for it to be cured, but from the looks of it, we'll have to put another coat on it before we put anything in the garage. Not that we can use it yet, anyway, as only half of it has been roofed. We're waiting for the other special order to come, since the builder didn't order enough of the starter strips for this particular type of shingle. It seems this pattern takes two rows, instead of the standard one, so we have half a roof at the moment. LOL

So many delays have happened with this garage that what would have had me in tears a week ago is now just funny. They don't get paid until we're satisfied, so it's to their advantage to not make all these time consuming mistakes. Go figure.

We bought a pair of trekking poles the other day, as an experiment. The one piece ones are supposed to be better, according to all I could find on the Internet. But it made more sense to try out a cheaper set of adjustable ones that both of us could use at different times, until we see if we like it. Using the walking poles is supposed to be a way to protect the knee, ankle, and hip joints, plus give the upper body a complete workout while you walk. And they are recommended as an excellent exercise tool for PWP.

We're practicing around the house right now. I'm not sure I am going to be able to use the best possible form with them, as it's kind of confusing. It involves holding them with a strap around your wrist and then letting go of the grip when the pole goes back, as you grip the other pole as you walk. Trying to keep my feet coordinated with the poles, plus remembering what my hands are doing, all at the same time, is very confusing. But I can definitely hold onto both poles all the time and do them OK. I can already tell that they are going to increase the exercise my upper arms and shoulders get. I've been walking with one pound weights every other lap now, for some time, in anticipation of trying these poles. I hope that means I'm ready for them, but I'm in no hurry to try to walk very far with them right now. I've learned that slow and easy works better for me.

We managed to salvage enough leftover sheathing and scrap 2x4's to have a good start on finishing off one inside wall of the garage, plus make some shelving, plus there is a good bit of the siding left over that they were going to take to the dump. We kept that, too, in case we ever have storm damage. I've been walking around outside the last few days with one of those magnets on a pole, picking up nails. No telling how long it will take for us to find all of them. With the drought we're having, it's not as if we need to be worrying about using the lawn mower in that part of the yard for awhile, so we should have it cleaned up before we need to be concerned with cutting the grass safely. As for cars, we're still not using the new part of the driveway or going near the garage. Tearing up a tire is just not worth it.

We're making slow headway with our eBay sales, with over 250 items listed now, so I'm hopeful that I can get back to enjoying reading everybody's blogs soon. I did manage to skim through Ruth's blog to see how things were going with her since Mick passed away, and I'm sorry to see that she's had one problem after another, due to the red tape of their national health care system. The more I read what Marion and Ruth have to say about socialized medicine, the surer I become that I pray we never get it in the USA!!

Since I'm writing this at 2 AM I think it's safe to say the insomnia is still going strong. I went to bed about 9:30PM, but I was wide awake by 12:30. I tried going back to sleep about 3:00, but didn't succeed, so I've been up since 3:30 with 3 hours sleep for the night. Counting the days until I see that sleep specialist!!

Getting a Sleep Study Done

I went to see my Neurologist yesterday, and he is very pleased with my physical progress. He doesn't want to change any of my meds, though, until I have had a sleep study. So, I have an appointment in July with a Sleep Disorder specialist. I'm not sure what that kind of doctor is called, but they gave me a book's worth of forms to fill out about myself that I have to have done for the appointment. I'm surprised they didn't ask me if I painted my toenails!!

I've been doing a little research about this insomnia thing and Parkinson's, and it's no wonder that this is bothering me. Something like 88% of PWP complain of insomnia!! Whether it's the disease or the meds we take, I'm not sure, but that's a significant symptom to deal with.

I have recently bought two more books that I think are going to be very helpful. One is Parkinson's - The Art of Moving, by John Argue, and the other is The Book of Exercise and Yoga for Those with Parkinson's Disease, by Lori Newell, M.A., which shows how to do each exercise from a chair if the PWP requires it. Add the Chi Walking book I've mentioned before, by Danny and Catherine Dryer, to that list, and I think any Parkie would find help with improving their body mechanics. I found used copies of the first two on Amazon recently, and I bought the walking book at a local book store. Thanks to Tami for suggesting the Art of Moving book.

DH mentioned last night that the slope of our newly installed home "track" makes it harder for him to get in as many steps as he does on the track at the local park. And I thought it was just me.

We now have extended our driveway around to the side of our house, with a new garage to be built next week, hopefully. But we didn't stop there. We had them put in a side walk to underneath our deck, and had a patio put in there. There's only about a five foot pathway between the end of the patio and the beginning of the sidewalk that goes from the deck steps to the front driveway that we need to finish with stepping stones.

That means we essentially have our own personal track now. We get an up and down slope going to and from the back yard, as we have a full daylight basement, with plenty of level walking up front and on the new driveway. Now I can step outside during the day and go around a time or two any time I get stiff or need a break from working on the computer. I'm not supposed to sit still more than about 15 minutes at a time, according to the Art of Moving book, so this is great. I think that's also why sitting through church bothers me so much. I can't wiggle enough in the pew to stay comfortable LOL!!

DH is walking between two and three miles each day we go to the track, but he's not able to do much else in the way of exercising. He had colon cancer several years ago, and the whole incision, from way above the navel all the way down, herniated last year. He has this huge piece of mesh sewn into his abdomen to hold it all together. You can actually see the bulge in his tummy where the muscles are just not able to support his mid section. The doctor cautioned him not to do crunches or anything similar, so it's hard for him to slim his middle down. He's pretty much stopped wearing trousers with belts, as they are just not comfortable.

So, I'm glad that my Parkinson's is giving him the motivation to walk consistently. He's a night owl, and if it weren't for getting up to keep me walking, I don't think he would get up early on his own. And, of course, it's way too hot to walk much around here unless you go very early. We are usually at the track by 6:00AM, with plenty of other walkers already going around when we get there. On days he doesn't feel like getting up that early, he's been walking around our own track as late as 10:00 at night!! So, we're helping each other to stay motivated, and that's a good thing.

43rd Wedding Anniversary!

How about that! Yesterday we celebrated our 43rd wedding anniversary. We've actually been seriously in love since 1960, but we waited for me to graduate from college before we got married. I wouldn't recommend that long an engagement to anyone, but getting my education was important, and it's helped our family financially all these years.

We went to a movie and ate out and generally enjoyed being with each other, as we always do. I would wish that all marriages could last so long with so much love still there after all the years.

It did get me out of the house and away from all these estate issues. We'll go to the bank today and open the ESTATE bank account and change over all the CD's to our name. That will be a couple of more things I can then cross off my task list, which is a very satisfying thing to do.

What with all the stuff we've been cleaning out of Daddy's house, I finally got up the gumption to clean out Pop's closet at our house. My FIL lived with us the last few years of his life, and when he died, I just couldn't bring myself to deal with his clothes. They weren't really in my way, so I put it off. Well, now I need the closet to store some of Mama and Daddy's stuff until we can sell it on eBay, so all of Pop's things are bagged up and ready to give to the Thrift Store. I will have to get the name tag labels out of everything, though, as he was in an Assisted Living home his last year, and everything is marked.

I've finally worked our eBay store back up to 250 items listed, which is about all we can afford at one time. Maybe now some other things on my To Do list can move up the line.

I did sleep longer last night, but it was because I took a Darvocet last night. The movie gave me a headache, plus I was generally achy all over. I think I've been over doing it lately, trying to box a lot of things up. Doing a lot more leaning over and picking things up than I have in a long time, and my muscles are complaining about it. Walking is great, but it doesn't take care of all the muscle groups. I have been doing some simple arm exercises with the 1 lb weights, and I've gone back to doing all the neck and shoulder exercises that the Physical Therapist put me on some years ago for the degenerated disk in my neck. I continue to do the Tai Chi, as well, so I'm really trying to build up my muscle tone. I do have a set of exercise videos that I bought several years ago, but that means getting down on the floor. Getting down isn't the problem .. getting back up is! LOL So, I'm postponing using them for awhile. I figure by the time the weather turns cold I'll be strong enough to get up and down safely.

We're still waiting for them to start work on our new garage, as we special ordered everything to match our house. I'm getting antsy, seeing that beautiful driveway and slab, with no building going on. But it will come, sometime soon. I just need to be patient.

Our older DD and SIL have moved into Daddy's house, in the midst of quite a mess. I'm glad it's them and not us!! But youth puts up with stuff that age can't or won't. We're working as hard as we can to empty the house of all of my parent's things, but it's a slow go.

So, I continue to stay busy, improving little by little each day. Crossing things off my list reduces my stress level, so I rejoice every time I finish one small part of this huge undertaking. Some days I have to hunt for something to feel positive about, but I work hard at staying optimistic. Thanks to all of you dear friends for your encouragement!!!!

Still NO Sleep

Insomnia is turning out to be my biggest problem right now, because it effects my stamina and mental agility as the day wears on. I start out each morning all fresh and energetic, even with only 4 hours sleep. I'm wide awake and rarin' to go! But I fizzle. Not surprising considering it's been over a month since I've had more than 4 hours a night. I doze in the car when we go anywhere, but other than that, there's nothing.

My Neurologist appointment is coming next week, and he had mentioned doing a sleep study. I think it's time, don't you?? I can't imagine what he can do about it, though, as I'm comfortable in the recliner, and if I snore, there's no one nearby to tell me about it LOL. I do hear my DH sawing away in the bedroom, though. Ah! Maybe HE's the culprit!! ROTFL

I'm really proud of how much stronger physically I am right now, and I'm determined to keep up the good work. I'm doing the Tai Chi almost every day, which definitely improves my balance, walking about 6000 steps on average, lifting 1 lb weights to do the arm exercises, and working around the house more than I have in a long time.

We're about to close on Daddy's house, so that will be out of the way. That leaves his car and all the stuff in the house to get rid of, plus some small insurance policies to deal with. UGH!

I continue to stay behind on all my computer work, but the eBay business is picking up, now that I'm listing new items every day. Maybe in the year 2020 I'll have all of the things we have been buying at Estate Sales sold. HA! Maybe ... but we keep on buying, 'cause that's the fun part for us, as we do that together. One step forward and two steps back! All the online part is strictly my doings. Hubby can't stand computers.

I really do miss all of you, but I just can't work it all in. I don't think I think as fast as I used to.

I Should Hang My Head in Shame LOL!

I'm sorry. I've really been missing in action lately in the Blogosphere, but I just don't seem to be able to get everything done in a day that I want to accomplish. And, as much as I enjoy blogging, it is not a top priority.

OK, apology aside, here's a brief recap of what's kept me so busy. First of all, we're still fully involved in settling Daddy's estate. Thank goodness we have a lawyer in the family!! We received the Letters Testamentary the other day, so I've had Daddy's car worked on. It's ready to try to sell now. I'm not looking forward to that, but hopefully it won't take long to find a buyer for the price we want for it. We're meeting with our DD and SIL and the mortgage person at the house tomorrow to fill out the sales contract on the house. There's been a good bit of talking back and forth to get all the particulars of the mortgage worked out to our satisfaction, but it looks like they will close within the next two weeks.

We've also been busy having a driveway and patio put in and the foundation for our new garage. We're waiting now for the special order materials we have chosen that will match our house. We were very pleased to find the same siding and shingles we already have are still available. Once we have the garage, we will be bringing the stuff out of Daddy's house that our daughters do not want, and then we'll be having a huge yard sale!! It may be fun to go to them, but it won't be fun to have one!

We have continued to go to the track, and I'm continuing to get stronger. I feel really great in the mornings, and it's hard to make myself quit, when I feel like I can do more. But, by the afternoon, I'm dragging, and by night time, I am worn out and sore. You'd think I'd sleep well with all this activity, but I'm getting about 4 hours a night. I just don't seem to be able to stay asleep long at all. And the sleeping pills don't help, either.

I've been extremely busy with our online business, too, trying to get our listings on eBay back up to our normal number. We have kept on buying, for the fun of it, even though we were not listing much. So now, it's list or not be able to move around our own home!!

Decided Against It

I do appreciate the feedback you gave me on the decision about joining the St. Vincent's facility, but we finally decided not to do it at this time. Time was, after all, the deciding factor. It was going to eat up about 3 hours each day I went, and to get any good out of it, I would have to have gone at least 2 days a week, if not 3. I think I can accomplish just about as much with home exercise equipment and our time at the walking track, which is about 5 minutes from home. Of course, in this day and time, we have to take gas prices into account too, and we do live a long way from any of these kinds of sports facilities, with some really bad traffic to contend with both ways.

I continue to accomplish more and more when I exercise in the mornings, but I'm paying for it each night with a lot of sore muscles. DH fusses at me for over doing it, but it doesn't ever seem like I am at the time. It's only later in the day that I realize I've over taxed my muscles. I think some of this pain I experience is coming from the Peripheral Neuropathy, particularly since I went off the Cymbalta. My Neurologist wasn't the least concerned about me taking it in conjunction with the Zelepar, even though the Pharmacist had warned me about the combination. So, I may yet go back on it. But for now, I'm still adjusting to adding the Requip back to my meds, so I don't want to add 2 new drugs at the same time.

The Requip is beginning to upset my stomach, just the way it did last time. I'm having lots of heartburn and belching a lot. Nothing else has changed, so it has to be the culprit. I'll put up with it if it doesn't get much worse than this, but I'm still planning to ask for the Neupro patch when I go back to Dr. S in June.

Just to document where I stand physically:

I can now sit down and stand up from a straight chair without using my arms, at least in the morning. I can't by the evening, though. Sofas and soft chairs I haven't mastered yet. I can walk over 3000 steps a day on the pedometer most days. I've put the handicap toilet seat away for now, as I can deal with the standard one, as long as I have the sink cabinet to hold onto. I'm still using the cane when we go to yard sales and such, where the terrain is unknown, and I still don't go up and down flights of stairs if I can avoid it. Crouching down to get things in and out of my kitchen cabinets is difficult, so I usually depend on DH to do that for me. I lose my balance too easily, particularly with something in my hands. My core muscles, those of the trunk, are definitely getting stronger as I continue to exercise, as I can now lift my behind when I do what's called the Bridge. It's a simple exercise, really. All you do is lie on your back, feet on the floor, with your knees raised, and try to lift your bottom. Until recently, I couldn't lift more than a half inch or so, but now I'm coming completely off the floor.

I'm doing the Tai Chi short form almost every day now, and I'm getting pretty good at it again. My balance continues to improve.

The biggest problem I am having right now, I suppose, is the insomnia. As soon as I started back on the Requip, it started back again. I haven't been able to sleep past 3:00 AM for some time now. I get a lot done on the computer, but I really need the sleep! I've tried napping later in the day, but that doesn't work unless I'm in the car. Then I can doze off almost instantly ;).

So, I am progressing, but I have lots of room for improvement. Eating healthy foods and exercising are just as much medicines for me as anything that comes in a bottle!

Can't Make Up My Mind

I've been going back and forth since Friday, trying to decide whether or not to join the St. Vincent's Health facility. We toured it Friday afternoon, and the place is really impressive. But when I found out the price, and now that I'm certain that my DH is not going to join, I'm just not sure what to do. If he had joined, I wouldn't be feeling guilty about all the time it's going to take to drive there and back, plus the time I'm there, too.

I can justify the cost, if I choose to go, as just being another expensive medicine. If the doctor were to prescribe something that costs $65 a month, and he really thought it would make a positive impact on my Quality of Life, I'd pay for it, without hesitation. So, even though that is a lot of money, I can't decide not to join just based on cost.

Being dependent on DH to drive me there, wait on me, and then drive home, is very depressing. I'm sure I would join if I could drive myself there, but that's just not going to happen. It would mean driving on Highway 280, the most congested road in Alabama.

When I had said I was going to join, DH let it slip that he really wasn't enjoying going walking in the mornings. He's a night person, so getting up that early is not what he wants to do. He's been keeping that to himself, because he wanted me to get the exercise. I feel bad that I've been hauling him out of bed all this time, when he really didn't want to, but it's just like him to put my interests over his.

So now my dilemma is that I don't want to put him out again, by going so far from home to exercise. I think if it were just exercise equipment, I wouldn't have any trouble saying no. But there are Yoga and Pilates classes, plus Aquatic classes for Arthritis folks, a shallow therapy pool, a large jacuzzi, a sauna, and a steam room. Hmmmm.... those sound so soothing on aching muscles.

I can't count how many times I've changed my mind this weekend LOL!! This whole wishy washy episode has really brought home to me how very upset I am that I have to depend on somebody else to help me do things I used to be able to do by myself. I don't like it one bit!!

No Surgery for Me!!

I went back to the Orthopedist yesterday to find out the results of the MRI on my knee. He says I have arthritis, and not a torn cartilage. There are two kinds of cartilage in the knee, and it's the one that is smoothed over the bone that is becoming thin in my knee. That's whats' causing the pain, as bone scrapes against bone. He said I could come back when I needed another Cortisone shot, and eventually, when I can't stand it any more, he can do arthroscopic surgery to smooth it all back out and decrease the pain.

That was what I was hoping he would say, so we're very relieved. Now I won't be quite so timid with my exercising. I plan on making an appointment with the St. Vincent's Sports Facility for next week, and will more than likely join. I'm not having any success getting my DH to agree to join, though. He'll have to drive me and wait on me, just the way he was doing the physical therapy, so it would be great if he would join. Then he could do his own exercising while I do mine. It's tempting to nag ... but I've been around long enough to know that that will backfire. So, I'll go for me, and maybe he'll change his mind.

I was awfully sore from the waist down yesterday. I can't really tell when I'm overdoing it. I don't feel like I'm doing too much at the time, but my body sure does complain that night. LOL My walking really has improved a lot, though, and I'm still doing the exercises that the PT gave me.

So I'm feeling good about my ability to gradually improve, as long as I don't overdo it.

Insomnia Is on the Prowl AGAIN

Looks like the Requip has my bout with insomnia going full force again. I didn't get to sleep until after 11 last night, but I've been wide awake since 2:30 this morning. It's been pretty much like this now ever since I started back on this particular medicine. I do have some sleeping pills, but I've resisted taking them, hoping my system would adjust. But tonight, I will definitely be taking one.

I do get a lot done when I'm in one of these moods, though! ROTFL I'm just about ready to change the listings on all our current eBay items to reflect all the changes the Post Office is making in Rate Classifications and prices. Just a word of warning to all of you .... don't be surprised if it costs considerably more to get something mailed to you from now on. The PO has really raised their prices tremendously, for some package situations as much as 700%!!!!

We bought a pedometer for me the other day, but I'm not convinced that it is counting every step I take. If it is, I'm not moving nearly enough in a day. DH isn't having any trouble at all going over 10,000 steps a day, and I barely went over 1,000!

My exercise program is coming along nicely, though, and my legs continue to gain in strength. I've been trying to understand exactly how to improve my posture and gait, based on the Chi Walking book I mentioned several posts ago. I wish I had someone who could just show me how, instead of trying to figure it out from pictures and words. I really don't have a very good kinesthetic sense .. in other words, it's hard for me to really tell where my body is. But that's nothing new .... I've always been that way, even as a child. I remember struggling to try to learn how to do a summersalt, and giving up finally. The Tai Chi routine does help me to be aware of where my body position is, and I've started doing that when we go to the track. DH walks 2+ miles in the time it takes me to do all my exercises, walk a quarter mile, and do my Tai Chi, with maybe a little time left over to clean out the car of all the junk it seems to accumulate so quickly, or to read a little. It's a great way to start the day off, with a feeling of accomplishment right off the bat.

So far, the only obsessive behavior I've noticed is that my craving for chocolate has gotten out of hand again. I did without any for such a long time, but when Daddy died I went back to eating it every day. I'm not supposed to eat it at all, because of the GERD I have. I'm really very good about avoiding everything else the Gastroenterologist has put on my banned list, but when I'm stressed for depressed, I have to have my chocolate. Nothing else will satisfy that craving. And I've always been that way. I can remember getting into trouble as a child on more than one occasion, because Mama would go to bake a cake, and I had eaten the bitter dark chocolate in the refrigerator. So when I read things about how chocolate contains chemicals that relieve stress, I believe it!

Standing MRI & A New Friend

I had the standing MRI yesterday, and that was quite a bit different from the lying down kind. First of all, it would be much better for anyone who is claustrophobic, as I was not closed in, and they actually had a big screen TV set up so I could watch it.

As far as my procedure was concerned, it was not very comfortable. The whole point was to take the MRI while I was putting weight on the knee, so I had to stand at about a 60 or 70 degree angle, I would guess, and be very still for about 30 minutes. By the time it was over my knee was really complaining, but it was worth every moment of it, if it gets them a better idea of what's going on in there. I still don't expect it to be torn cartilage, but soon I will know. Their brochure showed pictures of regular MRI views vs their stand up kind, with obvious disk problems that didn't show up when the patient was lying down. I may ask for that kind the next time I have to have one on my neck or back, for just that reason. I'll see the Orthopedist next week to get the report on it.

I've added the beginnings of a section on Radial Neuropathy to my side bar, not because I have that, but because I've recently started emailing back and forth to a new friend who has it. She and I live in the same small town, I taught her husband, know her MIL, and we're even members of the same church. And neither one of us knew each other LOL!! It was the Physical Therapist we've been going to, who gave her my blog URL, that got us together. She promises that she'll be posting here, so hopefully she can make contact with others who have problems more similar to hers. My Neuropathy is most noticeable in my legs, although my hands and arms are involved, too. Hers is severe, but I'll leave it to her to explain it.

I noticed the nausea from the Requip about 11:00AM again yesterday, but a few crackers stopped it. I'm still getting sleepy at the wrong time, as I nodded off early last night watching TV, and I've been up since 4:00AM. Actually, I woke up a little after 3:00, but I made myself stay put, thinking I would go back to sleep. No such luck.

I can't tell any difference in my gait yet, but it may take a week or so before I would notice anything, anyway. I don't remember reading anything about how long it takes Requip to take effect, so I'll have to try to do some research on that.

Oh, remember when I was having so much trouble typing? That has definitely improved. It must have been the stress of dealing with Daddy that was making that worse. Parkinson's folks don't handle stress as well as others do. I still make more mistakes than I'd like, but nothing like it was for awhile there.

I've done my morning exercises, but we're still not walking at the track. Hubby's poison ivy is getting worse, not better, and he's so stubborn I can't get him to go to the doctor about it. So he's just slathering on the anti-itch medicines I already had in the house, and he's trying to stay cool.

Speaking of cool, my temperature regulator is all off whack. I'll have hot flashes one minute and be freezing the next. I'm putting my jacket on and pulling it off constantly!! This is a Parkies thing, too, so there's not much else I can do about it.

I'll spend the day today writing descriptions and finishing the pictures I took this morning, so I can put some new items on eBay tonight. DH has gone grocery shopping, a regular Wednesday morning routine of his, and a chance for him to stop and chat with his buddies. I guess that pretty well catches me up for the day. I hope you are having a good day, too.

Starting Requip Again - Stopped Physical Therapy

Yesterday was my last time for Physical Therapy on my knee for now. I called my insurance company, and they only allow 15 PT visits a year, unless THEY approve the extra ones, and I've used 7 of them already. So, I figured I'd better leave myself with some, in case I have other problems before the end of the year.

I asked her about using the mini trampoline we have, and also a little stepper and an exercise ball. Her concerns had to do with balance, but other than that, she thought they would be fine. She said the stepper was a particularly good one for a PWP, because of the repetitive alternating motion. Of course she cautioned me to go slow about adding minutes to it, and to rest every other day or every two days. She's very emphatic about reminding me that the Parkinson's means I have to rest my muscles more than other people would need to. But she emphasized that I need to be on a regular exercise program the rest of my life.

I did start on the Requip again yesterday. Even though I've been doing all this exercise and my legs are definitely stronger, I'm still walking very slowly. It's called Bradykinesia, and it's always been my main Parkinson's symptom. Requip has some pretty uncomfortable side effects, as most of the PD meds do, it seems, so I really tried to do without it. But I just don't think the Zelepar is enough on its own. Dr. S. told me to use my own judgment on starting it back, so I've decided it's time.

I did get nauseated before lunch yesterday and I had a headache last night. Plus, this morning, I got light headed while I was taking pictures for our eBay listings. I stood still too long, I guess. Anyway, I had to stop and sit down, as I broke out in a cold sweat and could feel myself getting woozy. The worst side effect for Requip, though, is compulsive behavior - if that starts up again I won't be able to use it, for sure.

The PT worked me pretty hard yesterday, knowing it was my last visit, and I was very uncomfortable last night. I ended up taking 2 Lortab to stop the pain in my legs. At least that meant I got a good night's sleep! They don't seem to be as sore today, so that's good.

I'm having the MRI today at a different place, called a Stand Up MRI. That will be a new experience. It makes me wonder if that was chosen to get a different view of my knee, as there is a regular tunnel MRI place in the same building with my doctor.

I just realized that I forgot to call the Orthopedist's office yesterday to make the follow up appointment. I'm really having a hard time remembering to do everything that needs to be done nowadays. Hubby tries to help me keep it all straight, and I make lists like crazy. I've even started using the task reminders on my Outlook program to try to help. Of course I have to remember to put the reminders in the program LOL!

I got an email from the other PT patient who has Neuropathy last night, and of all things, we live in the same town!!! I'll be doing some research on her particular type of Neuropathy and adding links to it, if I can find anything specific for her. I wonder if she lives anywhere near the EPA toxic site, the way we do????? She's in far worse shape than I am, and the doctors don't know what's causing her problems, either. And she's young. I've added her to my prayers, and I hope she and I can continue to correspond.

It was a day of changes yesterday, but hopefully they will be good changes. Only time will tell.

Wonderful Cortisone

I went to the Orthopedist yesterday and talked to him about my knee and shoulder. I'm satisfied that the shoulder is responding well to the Physical Therapy, and I can tell that the leg, hip, and thigh muscles have strengthened since I've been going to PT, but my knee still will not straighten all the way out, and getting up and down from a chair still is extremely painful. So, he's put in a request with my insurance for the MRI, so we'll both know what's going on in there.

He did ask me if I wanted a Cortisone shot, and said it might give me relief for anywhere from a few days to a few months. The shot hurt something horrible going in, and the knee was awfully sore yesterday, but it's not hurting now! It's been so long since I could sit down without inwardly, or sometimes outwardly, groaning, that this is quite a pleasant change. I pray that I will be one of the ones to get long term relief with the shot. I've always had good success with epidurals lasting a long time, so I'm optimistic.

I did ask about going back for more PT, and his PA told me I needed to check with my insurance to see how many times they will authorize. She said I might want to keep some therapy sessions available, just in case I do end up having surgery. It's a shame that insurance companies control decisions like this, not the doctors and therapists who know how much I need this. I have good insurance though, so I'll be talking to them Monday to find out where I stand.

I had already decided before I got hurt taking care of Daddy that I would join a fitness "club" run by St. Vincent's hospital in Birmingham after he died, but the knee put that on hold. They have a program where you pay for a complete evaluation of your physical condition and they supervise your exercise program, with quarterly checkups of your progress with a Physical Therapist. They have all kinds of equipment, a pool, and lots of different classes I can take. I've been chatting back and forth with Lynda of Pilates & Reiki in Paradise about possible nearby instructors suitable for a person with Parkinson's, and oddly enough, this is the very Pilates class she suggested. Small world.

So, for the time being at least, I'm pain free, with plans for keeping it that way. We're going on our usual Date Day today, and by the time I've been in and out of the car dozens of times today, I'll know if I'm going to be one of the lucky one for whom Cortisone is a wonder drug. Wish me luck!!

Stiffness

I had trouble yesterday and today with a lot of stiffness when I got up, and it took quite a while for it to go away. I mentioned it to the PT yesterday, and she said I'm probably going to have to try to keep my activity level fairly constant, rather than over-exerting and then taking a few days off, the way most people would. It's just a Parkinson's thing, she says, and not, LOL, my age!

I did get in and out of the car a whole lot last Friday on our Date Day, as we had a lot of Estate Sales available to look at. So, I didn't do much of anything Saturday. Big mistake, evidently. Well, lesson learned. I'll know now that I need to try to keep on with at least my exercises the next day after I get overly tired. One thing's for sure, I have no intention of cutting back on our Estate Sale haunts, as that's an important part of my Quality of Life. We really enjoy each other's company, and I don't want to mess that time up at all, until it becomes absolutely impossible to continue. And I'm hoping that day is a long, long way away!

I'm looking forward to my Orthopedist appointment this Thursday, and I'm hoping he will authorize the MRI of my knee, just so I can know if I have any torn cartilage or not. I have no intention of having arthroscopic surgery on it at this stage of the game, but if it is torn, I'll probably want to find out about a knee brace for times when I might need it. Our basement is one big junk yard, and right now DH is having to do all the cleaning and throwing out by himself, as I don't dare twist anything. The brace would make me braver about squatting, turning, etc., and I'd feel better if I were helping him. After all, it's in that big a mess because I haven't felt like cleaning it out for a long, long time now, long before he retired and took over much of the housework.

So, here's to being even more physically active and feeling more useful!

Continuing to Improve

I am really beginning to see some improvement in my muscle strength in the last few days. No, I'm not ready to run the Marathon, but I am doing my sets of exercises with much less difficulty, and I can see the ease of walking around the track getting better. I did as the PT told me to, and cut back the walking to once around the track, and then I'm finishing up the time with my daily exercises and one set of the Short Form Yang Style Tai Chi that I used to do. My Tai Chi is not in very good form right now, but that will improve as I do it consistently.

I've also started reading a new book that caught my eye at the bookstore Friday, called Chi Walking. I'm impressed so far with it's clear cut instructions on how to walk properly, and there's lots of mental and emotional balancing stuff thrown in for good measure. I would recommend the book to anyone who wants to be more efficient in their walking and body mechanics, so don't let any of the "Chi talk" keep you from giving this book a try.

I'm trying really hard to get back some of my old habits of simple things like washing dishes first thing in the morning. I know that sounds trivial to some of you, but having that shiny sink (FlyLady, anyone?)really does motivate me to do more about keeping the rest of my life cleaned up. The clutter is going to take awhile to get rid of, but I'm making a consistent effort on it now. And, of course, the more I do around the house, the more exercise I'm getting.

We've gotten back into selling on eBay pretty much now, with the habit of taking new pictures in the morning and writing descriptions while I watch TV back in place. We keep buying the stuff, so I guess I better start selling again, huh? It is fun to see the bids come in, and we're both big kids about it. It's great to have a hobby that pays for itself, too! LOL

Now, if I could just get myself back in the blogging habit as much as I would like. I apologize for not being around much lately. I changed over to VISTA, bought new versions of some of my software {translation - learn how to do it all over again), and started changing all our sales templates to CSS in the last month, so I have been just a wee tad busy ;). I have managed to keep up with BLOG VILLAGE, though, adding lots of new members and getting the HEALTH Carnival ready for today's unveiling. All in all, though, I'm very please with what I've accomplished lately.

Quadriceps Are Giving Me Fits

Well, I think the Physical Therapist came close to killing me last Thursday LOL. The tops of my thighs, where the quadriceps muscles are, were so sore Friday through Sunday that it was all I could do to get in and out of the car or sit down or get up from even the handicap toilet. I spent the whole time on strong pain pills, and much of it with the hot pad in use.

So, when I went for therapy yesterday I was very quick to let her know that whatever she did Thursday was too much. She cut way back and basically just did a few warm ups and then put me on the ultrasound, electrical stimulation, and moist heat for a long time. She doesn't want me to walk at the track but every other day for one lap, avoiding the days when I have therapy. She says as weak as the quadriceps are that she's afraid I will lose my balance or start to fall. Without the quads being strong, she says I'll damage my knee. She was also surprised that I was able to walk even the quarter mile around the track once, even with the cane. She says I'm compensating in some way for the weak quads, which means I have just completely forgotten how to walk normally. I really try to do it "right," but I must not be, according to her.

She did say that the other PN patient she has is doing better, and she did give her the URL for this blog. I'm going to be disappointed if she doesn't write, as it will do me good to talk to someone who has a similar problem.

I was a good girl this morning, and only did one slow lap with the cane, concentrating on the technique for each step. Then I did my home exercises while DH walked his 2 miles. He lapped me 3 times before I could get around once! ROTFL

I go back to the Orthopedist next week, and I'll decide after I talk to him whether I should try to get an appointment with my Neurologist sooner than scheduled. I suspect he will agree with me on that. He was planning on getting an MRI of my knee once I had the PT, as that's what my insurance required before they would authorize the MRI. I am so thankful that I had this opportunity to go to Physical Therapy. It's a shame that insurance companies are so stingy with authorizing it. I can't get it for chronic conditions, so having Parkinson's Disease or Peripheral Neuropathy wouldn't get me permission. But wrenching my knee did!! Strange twisted logic - it's OK for me to fall because of weak muscles sometime in the future????

The deadline for our BLOG VILLAGE HEALTH Carnival is this Friday, but I haven't decided yet which post to enter from this blog. Too many to choose from, I guess. If you have a post you could enter, I'd appreciate your participation.

Physical Therapy Continues

I am shocked at how weak my right side has become. And a little scared, too, as I can see that I'm going to be in need of care giving a lot sooner than I had imagined, if I cannot regain at least a reasonable amount of my muscle strength. The PT has been very kind this week, and has allowed me to take the time to do the leg exercises on both sides, even though the "prescription" from the doctor only addresses the right knee. Actually, I don't really think the knee is the problem, only the result. The real problem, which is definitely the case on both sides, but more so on the right, is that my hip muscles are extremely compromised. That's causing the unnatural gait and putting the extra strain on the knee. The right one just complained more because of the stress shifting Daddy in the bed caused.

My shoulder is definitely improving, so that's something to be pleased with, anyway. She didn't even work on it yesterday, except for the electrical stimulation and moist heat therapy at the end of the session. I spent two hours there yesterday, just working on my legs and hips. Plus, we walked yesterday morning, and I did 3/4 of a mile, with the cane.

She wants me to cut back on the walking every few days to one or two laps to give my muscles a chance to recuperate, so I'll just sit and watch DH finish his laps on those days. She tells me that the Peripheral Neuropathy causes my muscles to fatigue faster than normal and bounce back more slowly, so I have to be careful to not overdo each set of exercises and rest longer between them than other people would need to.

We chatted while I worked, and it seems that she has another patient right now with idiopathic PN, too. Idiopathic just means the doctors don't know what's causing it, which is true for me, too. Anyway, I gave her the address for this blog to pass along to her, and I hope she does stop by. I know it helps me to chat with people with similar problems, and it's very hard to find much on the Internet about Peripheral Neuropathy that's not caused by diabetes.

My hip sockets and upper thighs ached the rest of the day yesterday, so I ended up taking a Lortab to get to sleep last night. I do feel better this morning, though, and we won't go to the track today, since it's our Date Day. That will help my muscles rest and rebuild. She wants to see me two times next week, again to allow more time for the muscles to rest before the therapy sessions. Of course, I have my list of home exercises to continue, so I'll still be getting therapy.

Oh, another thing I did yesterday was to stop and buy new bottles of my Centrum Silver and vitamin C+D. I found out at the eye doctor's office the other day that not everyone can dissolve the wax that's used to turn medicines into pills. That means some people pass the pills straight through their body without even getting any benefit at all. I had heard that before, that sometimes when septic tanks are cleaned out they are full of pills! So,to get maximum benefit, he told me to change to capsules or gels. Centrum doesn't seem to come that way, so I got the chewable ones instead, and I found the C+D in gells. She also said I was not taking enough of the C for my Osteopenia (loss of bone mass that is not as bad as Osteoporosis), so now I'll be taking those twice a day. She warned me not to try to just take one huge dose, though. She says the body can't absorb more than about 500 units at a time.

Sorry to sound so depressing today, but this has really slammed home to me how much function I've already lost, with no way of knowing if I can regain it. I can only do my best to follow the PT's directions and hope for the best.

Peripheral Neuropathy Rears Its Ugly Head

I went to the Physical Therapist this morning for evaluation of my knee and shoulder problems. The news was not good. It seems that I have significant weakness in my right leg and hip muscles, and also in my left hip muscles. My hand strength was markedly less in the right hand than the left, but that didn't surprise me.

She said it was no wonder I was having trouble with my knee, or with walking, as my muscles were so very weak. She does not want me to walk so far at the track, but to concentrate on walking with full use of my hip muscles. I had already realized that I wasn't doing that. When I do take a full stride from the hip I feel like I'm drunk, with a wobbly unsteady sensation. I don't know any other way to describe it, and I look drunk, too. She wants me to use my cane on a regular basis, because she doesn't want me to reinforce my unnatural gait. I'm to see her two more times this week, plus she's given me a set of exercises to do here at home.

She thinks the knee is so irritated because the muscles that should be providing support just aren't doing their job well at all. And she said the same thing about both hips. So, I'm going to be busy trying to build up what I can, before I end up on the floor LOL!!

I also had an ultrasound treatment on my knee and an electrical stimulation treatment on the shoulder and the knee, with moist heat, too. That felt wonderful, and it's supposed to improve and speed up the healing process.

The PT is a very nice lady, and I felt comfortable with her immediately. It's just as well, as it sounds like I'm going to be going there for awhile. Of course, insurance has a lot to do with how many sessions they'll let me have, so I need to learn as much as I can about how to do the exercises at home.

Blazing Around the Track!

We've been walking pretty regularly around the park track for several weeks now, with a few days off due to the raw cold, and I've seen a good bit of improvement. I started out using the walker, and was really depending on it. We were lucky enough some time ago to find a good buy at an Estate Sale for the kind that has four large wheels and a padded seat. It's really a Cadillac, as it has all kinds of pockets and sections, plus a large storage bin under the seat. The only drawback is that it takes up a good bit of room in the car, even folded up. But it's been perfect for the track. I don't have to worry about getting stranded on the far side, as I can stop and sit any time I need to. Actually, I haven't sat down yet, but knowing I could makes me push myself further than I would otherwise.

When we started, I was doing good to get around twice, with the walker. Now I'm making two rounds without the walker and two more with it, for a whole mile. Of course, I'm slow, but I definitely see progress! DH is walking with me, and he's up to 6 laps in the time it takes me to do 4.

I haven't heard from the Physical Therapy place yet, so I'll have to call the Orthopedist's office to get the ball rolling on that.

I spent a very upsetting hour or so trying to talk to Medicare about the charges they denied when Daddy went to the hospital. It's standard procedure for Medicare to deny any and all claims if the date of service overlaps the date of Hospice service. Each one has to be reapplied for, with a statement of Denial from the Hospice, proving the charge was unrelated to what he was on Hospice for. So the Medicare person was no help at all. I did, however, get somewhere with the Billing Clerk from the Radiologist who didn't get paid.

Getting Back to Normal?

I've gotten a lot done in the last few days. We've had the appraiser out to the house, the taxes are ready to sign and mail, and I'm almost finished with the tax bookwork for our paid caregiver. I finally gave up and went to the Orthopedist about my knee and shoulder, too. The X-rays showed the degenerated cervical disk I already knew about, and arthritis in my knee, which wasn't surprising. Dr. J is guessing that I have a torn miniscus, but it will take an MRI to determine that. From what I've been able to read on the Internet, that seems like a reasonable diagnosis to me, particularly since it was injured when I was shifting Daddy up in the bed.

I'll have to go to Physical Therapy and stay on Extra Strength Tylenol 3 times a day before my insurance will agree to the MRI. That's fine with me, as far as the therapy goes, as I'm sure it will be helpful. The Tylenol doesn't even faze the pain, but I'm following his directions and taking it regularly.

We're still walking at the track early in the mornings, but it's been way too cold the last few days. Alabama is having record cold weather right now. So, we've been doing exercises from videos. DH is REALLY following the tape, and I'm bouncing on one of those little trampolines and doing as much of the arm movements as my shoulder will let me.

I'm still just taking the Zelepar, hoping that the exercise and whatever the doctor does for my knee will be enough. I just don't want to try the Requip, if I can possibly help it.

We had our usual Date Day Friday and enjoyed looking at lots of Estate Sales. We've never been able to be an Early Bird before! It was strange to get there before most of the stuff was gone. And we did manage to pick up a few good buys, I think.

It's been ages now since I've taken pictures and put anything on eBay, but I'm going to try to get back to that this week. We have an almost overwhelming amount of "stuff" we've bought in the last few years, and I haven't been able to work seriously on our online sales for almost 2 years. With so much of the Estate business started now, I'm ready to get back to NORMAL.

Lots to Do Settling Daddy's Estate

This is the second time I've been the executor of an estate, but Daddy's is much more involved than Pop's was. Luckily, we have a niece who is a lawyer, so I'll have some help when I'm ready. I've tried researching what I need to do on the Internet, and I've been surprised at how little help I could find. Everything seems to be geared toward Estate Planning, rather than settling an estate.

April 15th is getting closer, too, and I've just not been up to dealing with important numbers. I did get a good start today, though. Starting is half the battle for me, as I find I've become quite the procrastinator in the last few years. I don't know if that's a sign of old age LOL, stress, or Parkinson's!

We walked again this morning, but I was slow as mud. I made it around for a half mile, using the walker. I've been using the walker all this week, but I depended on it more today, as I could feel the tightness in my shoulders when I stopped. That slow as mud feeling is the first Parkinson's symptom I had, so it's looking less and less like I'll be able to continue on just the Zelepar. The Neurologist told me I could go back on the Requip as well, if I felt like I had to. I've resisted, because the Requip gave me stomach troubles last time. Well, I had stomach trouble when I was on the Requip - that doesn't automatically mean the Requip was causing it. It's that uncertainty that has kept me trying to do without it. I'm just not ready to cope with stomach side effects yet. Maybe next week.

I taught 4th and 5th graders for 25 years, but I've seen the "Smarter than a Fifth Grader" TV show a couple of times since I've been back home. It's scary how much my mind goes blank on stuff I know I should know. I hope it's just remnants of caregiver burnout, and not the PD effecting my mental abilities. Stress can really do a number on such tasks, so I'm trying really hard to relax as much as I can. But getting things accomplished is part of what's needed to lower my stress level, too, so it's a matter of finding a balance, I guess.

I continue to be uplifted by all the loving comments. You all really are helping. Just a thought for you, if you need to send a sympathy card to someone. One of our friends included a neatly cut out copy of Daddy's Obituary notice in their card. It was very much appreciated.

All Your Wonderful Thoughts & Prayers

There's just no way I can begin to tell you how much I've appreciated all the thoughtful comments you dear friends have been leaving, just to let me know you were thinking of me, and to express your condolences.

It's hard to know how to get started again, after so much has gone on, but I guess the best thing to do is just start ....

I'm more rested, we're dealing with the long To Do list that is involved in closing out Daddy's affairs, and I've had a birthday.

I'm still resisting changing my PD meds, as we started going to the local walking track this week. I want to give myself a chance to build back some strength through exercise and Tai Chi first. My right arm and knee are still bothering me, but I'm taking less and less pain meds, so they must be getting better.

When I said on my last post that one journey ended and another was beginning, I was referring to myself just as much as Daddy. DH and I have had someone to take care of almost constantly for the last 10 years or more. It's strange to be able to make plans without having to take someone else's needs into account.

I have lots to do to get back up to speed with our blogs, BLOG VILLAGE, and our online sales, but I'm not pressuring myself. I'll get it done gradually.

I look forward to getting back to reading all your great blogs that I've been missing, so bear with me, as it may be awhile before you see me commenting on everyone's posts.

Ahhh To Sleep, Perchance to Dream

Thank goodness for Ambien. I called my Neurologist's nurse yesterday and explained the situation with Daddy. She called in the prescription, and I had a good night's sleep last night, for the first time in a week. Whew!! That felt good.

It will take me a few days to get over being so tired, I expect, but getting a good night's sleep will make a world of difference in what I can accomplish without being totally exhausted. Maybe I can even get back to practicing my Tai Chi in Daddy's living room. After going to all that trouble to learn it again, I sure don't want to forget it. And it's good for my balance and stamina, too.

I've been reading some articles lately that say Pilates is good for PWP (people with Parkinson's), so that may be the next thing I look into. I haven't been able to figure out from what I've read if these were specially modified Pilates classes or not. Of course, it would make a big difference if they were. Speaking of PWP, I've also found that Parkinson's folks call themselves Parkies. Ain't that cute? So I'm a PWP and a Parkie now.

One of the Hospice people tried unsuccessfully several times yesterday afternoon to call us from her cell phone. We live in the middle of nowhere, as far as cell coverage is concerned. "Can you hear me now" just won't work out here. In fact, we had Verizon, and dropped it, because we couldn't get it to work at all LOL. She never did come, and we never did get to talk to her, either.

I'm considering ordering DSL for here, so I don't have to depend on my cell phone while I'm on the computer. Plus, for some reason, the program our church uses for editing our website just won't let me FTP from here on dialup. It works fine at the house on DSL. I'm the church webmaster, and that has to be updated weekly.

As you may be able to tell, I'm in a pretty good mood today. It's been over a week since he fell, and we've developed somewhat of a routine. Now that I know I will be able to sleep, I feel like we can handle whatever comes, between the two of us. We've had plenty of care giving experience, and we have Hospice for support. Our daughters and church family will help where they can, and we have our faith in God to hold us in the good and the bad times. What more could we ask.

Your prayers and kind thoughts are always appreciated, too. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much!

Continuing to Feel Good

I felt better for a Sunday than I have in some time. All the exercise is beginning to pay off, I think. Usually, by the time I've cleaned up after Daddy and fixed his cooked Sunday morning breakfast, I'm already tired. Then the long sit through Sunday School and Church just leaves me drained for the day. That didn't happen yesterday. I had plenty of energy. My body still cramped some in church, but not as bad as usual. I've stopped carrying the cane to church, too, so I'm feeling much more normal. Everyone's still good to ask about me and let me know that they are praying for me, which I really appreciate.

I didn't do so good a job of staying off the computer yesterday, even though I really did mean to. This is going to be a hard habit to change, and the difficulty of it just convinces me that it has reached the compulsive point. I've gone through all my usual daily computer tasks already this morning, and I've taken a set of pictures for an eBay listing already, so at least I'm being a little more efficient.

We're taking Daddy to the Podiatrist today, so that will get me away from the computer for awhile. I'm going to see the Podiatrist, too, this time. I made the appointment several months ago, thinking I would keep it if the diagnosis was Parkinson's and cancel it if it weren't. What with the Peripheral Neuropathy, and some very deformed toenails already, it just seemed like a good idea to touch base with him. Daddy sees him every three months, as he's a diabetic, but I don't expect to see him but maybe once a year, unless he tells me otherwise.

I'm noticing a gradual weight loss, which suits me just fine. I've just about cut out all sweets, and my portion sizes are much smaller than they used to be. I really don't feel like eating very much at one time any more. I've cut out the in between snacks, too, for the most part. And the meal at night is usually very small - sometimes only a banana. I just don't get hungry at night any more. We eat our big meal at lunch now, and my dear sweet hubby, who does the cooking, makes sure it's a very nutritious meal. I'm overweight, anyway, which puts extra strain on my legs and balance, so I hope to continue to lose weight gradually for some time.

Feeling Good Today, But Giving Up on Blogger for Now

I felt much better today, waking up without a headache, neckache, or sore shoulders. I even managed to get through the day with only a little bit of nausea. I was able to make a brisk walk up to Daddy's and back this morning, without getting too tired, and I've practiced the Tai Chi form once today, too.

I spent most of today trying to get this blog template to suit me, but I've decided that I'm going to give in and call it quits. I was hoping I could learn enough XHTML to be able to make the changes I wanted to make, but it's just taking too much of my time, what with Thanksgiving so close. Maybe I'll play with it some more later on, after the Holidays are over.

Tai Chi Helped!!

I'm glad I went on to Tai Chi, even though I wasn't feeling like it. I certainly wasn't as stable as I sometimes am, but I worked hard, only took a few breaks, and felt better for having gone through the whole form and worked on some of the stances. I did get nauseated at one point, but it passed pretty quickly. He's very patient.

I've tried to find a class within easy driving distance, but there just doesn't seem to be one.

Well, as You Can See - I'm Back to Plain!! YUCK!!

My advice to anyone who hasn't changed to Blogger Beta is DON'T!!! I'm having way too much trouble with this. I finally get it just right in FireFox, and no matter what I do, I can't fix it in IE. I even went back and started over with the simple template again, and monitored one change at a time, to see what was causing the problem with IE. Once I had the problem, undid the change, the problem wouldn't go away!!! What a messy piece of programming!! Google should be ashamed of themselves. Do I sound peeved? Well, I am.

On a happier note, I have a Tai Chi lesson today. Not sure how well I'll do, as nauseated as I've been, and as stiff as my shoulders and neck have been the last few days, but I'm hoping the exercise will help. It always leaves me feeling very relaxed, and, as you can tell, I need that right now.

Tai Chi & Flu Shot - Taking Care of Myself

I went for my Tai Chi lesson yesterday, and I'm finally beginning to show some real improvement. My balance is a lot better, and I can go for the whole 30 minute session without a break now. We went through the whole form several times, with lots of practice on some of the transitions that I have trouble with. It really doesn't matter what he chooses to work on, as it's all good for me. I really like the Sensei. He seems to have an uncanny ability to gauge just how much to push me and when to back off. I guess that comes from years of teaching. All I know is he's good at what he does.

The lessons are not cheap, because I couldn't find a group class anywhere close enough. But then, my medicine isn't cheap, either. I would recommend Tai Chi to anyone who needs to exercise, but is afraid of anything strenuous, because of health issues. You'll get a good workout, but it will be at a pace that your body can slowly adapt to. Plus, it leaves you in a very relaxed state of mind and body.

I also got my flu shot yesterday, too, at my Neurologist's recommendation. I took two Tylenol when we got in the car afterwards, and I haven't had any problems from it at all.

So, I'm continuing to work toward strengthening my body, taking care of myself, and getting back to as normal a routine as I possibly can. I'm house cleaning more, which is good exercise in itself, walking more, and generally feeling like my old self. I thank God every day for giving me that day of normalcy, and I no longer take anything for granted. I pray that I can continue to stay in this attitude of gratitude.

Today My Balance Worked

I could tell when I got up this morning that my balance was back to "normal." This fluctuation in what I can do is something I'm just going to have to get used to, I guess. I did manage to get several descriptions done for eBay, but I didn't get them on last night, because DH had a called Deacon's meeting that didn't get over until about 9:00, so we were late getting home. I don't like to post items after 8:00, so they'll go on tonight.

All the Deacon's wives stayed in the Fellowship Hall, where we had been for Wednesday night Prayer Meeting and Worship, and visited with each other. It's been a long time since I stayed for one of those informal gatherings, and I really enjoyed it.

It was also the first time I let them see me walk any without the cane. This on and off way it effects me is hard to explain to people, so I've been avoiding having to explain by using the cane at church all the time, whether I thought I needed it or not. Now that the med doses are higher, and I'm exercising more, my balance and leg strength are better more days than not. I still need the cane for certain situations, so I carry it everywhere, but I don't always use it.

My main difficulty continues to be my digestive system. I'm just trying to wait out another week, as that's when I'm completely off the Sinemet. If all the nausea, gas, cramping, and just generally feeling lousy don't stop then, I'll have to change my Gastroenterologist appointment to a sooner date. I'm just telling myself to be patient for now, over and over and over.

Balance? What Balance?

Today was my Tai Chi lesson, and I started to call Sensei Tetsu and postpone it. I knew when I got up that this was going to be one of those days when my balance was not going to be very good. I decided to go anyway, just to see what I could do on a day like today.

Well, let's just say, it was obvious almost immediately that there were going to be some parts of the form that were just not going to be done very well. But we worked the whole half hour, with only a quick water break. That's better than I've done before. I didn't need to stop after 15 minutes for a walk around break, so my stamina is improving, at least. We also got straight through the whole form at the end of the lesson, and that's the first time I've done that. So even though I was stumbling some, and having trouble with some spots that hadn't been bothering me before, I'm still pleased with my workout.

What I like the most about Tai Chi is that I'm so relaxed when I get through. I would recommend it to anyone who needs to deal with stress, or is limited in the kinds of exercise they are able to do.

Still Increasing Requip Doses

I'm still increasing the dose size of the Requip very gradually, and this week I'm only taking the half Sinemet and Lodocyn twice a day. I'm not up to a full Requip dose yet, because my walking is not up to normal yet. I can still feel the trembling, particularly on my right side. I can't balance on my right foot, either, and it's still difficult to go down steps without holding on and being very careful. But it's getting there. I see the Neurologist again the first week in November, so he should be able to tell by then just how much more Requip I need. Hopefully, when I get off the Sinemet, my tummy will settle down completely. I sure hope so.

I'm continuing to try to get just as much exercise as I can, and we're eating as healthy as we possibly can, too. I've even started back to putting items on eBay. That's something I just about had quit doing, while I was so sick with the colitis, and when I was having so much trouble walking. I need to get back to a regular routine, though. We can't keep going to the estate sales if I don't start selling some of our purchases, right?

Tai Chi Form Was Good Today - Tummy Wasn't

I've increased the dosage of the Requip, but I haven't yet cut the amount of Sinemet, other than going to the half tablets four times a day. It really showed today when I went for my second Tai Chi lesson. I could tell the difference immediately, as I walked around the mat to warm up. Just walking was much easier. Doing the form was much easier, too, and I only had to stop once for a walking break. I was very pleased with my progress.

I've not been pleased with my stomach, though. Just drinking some water after we left the gym set my abdomen to cramping. After lunch, which was a particularly bland one, the gas got so bad that I had to take some Gas-X. I was really in a lot of pain way up in my chest. After I took my 4:30 meds, my stomach was very tender.

I'll be cutting the Sinemet down to just twice a day on Friday, so hopefully my tummy will begin to get better then. If it doesn't, I'll have to call the Gastroenterologist again.

First Tai Chi Lesson

My DSL is on the fritz right now, so I've not been able to get on the Internet much lately. So I'm behind on posting here.

I went Thursday for my first private lesson with Sensei Tetsu for Tai Chi. I had taken group lessons from him several years ago, when I was under the stress of just having lost my mother to Alzheimer's and was then still taking care of my FIL, who also had Alzheimer's. I found the exercise to be physically challenging and emotionally releasing.

I had read that it was a recommended exercise for Parkinson's patients, so it seemed logical to try to work on it again. Sensei was happy to help me in any way he could.

He started me from the very beginning and put me through quite a workout over the thirty minutes of the lesson. I had to tell him to stop twice, because my legs were trembling so badly, so he walked me around the mat and helped me work on my deep breathing, until I was ready to begin again. I could feel my legs and arms limber up and obey my commands more easily as the lesson progressed.

Tai Chi requires intense concentration on the most minute body position changes, and the slow flowing movements are just perfect for me. I would lose my balance at times, of course, but he understood that, and just kept going, giving me the chance to catch up with him. He's an extremely patient teacher, and just perfect for my needs. I hope to continue seeing him once a week for some time.

He's not cheap, by any means, but neither is all the medicine I'm on. And neither would a nursing home be, if I ended up in one. So my DH and I just consider the expense to be like any other medicine that has been prescribed. I wouldn't think of not getting a prescription filled, and I am not going to do without this exercise, either.

We intend to do everything we possibly can to delay the debilitating stage of PD as long as possible, in the hope that a cure, or at the very least, better medicines or procedures, will be discovered before I reach that point. We leave my ultimate outcome in God's hands, but will do everything we can humanly do toward a good result, as well. I believe that is what God expects us to do.

My Prayers Have Been Answered!!

I've been going to doctors for years with strange symptoms that came and went, that they never could explain. Most of them were attributed to stress, which made sense, but I was never satisfied with the diagnosis. Today, the Neurologist officially gave us the diagnosis of Parkinson's Disease, and even though that can mean years of debilitating illness, it doesn't have to be that way. Every PD patient is different. I'm just so relieved to have an explanation for what's been happening to me, particularly for the last year, that I have been celebrating all day long. Now I have an enemy I can fight!!!

Doctor S has given me the directions today for weaning off of the Sinemet and changing over to Requip, which is a dopamine agonist. There's no way of knowing if I will be able to use it instead, without trying it, so the next 4 weeks will be another trial. Sinemet is the gold standard of PD meds, but it only works for a limited number of years, before the side effects cause as much trouble as the PD does. So they try to delay starting "younger" patients like me on it, if they can help it. (I don't call 63 younger LOL)

We also asked about exercise, and he said for me to walk for 30 minutes a day for 4 days a week. From my reading I've found that Tai Chi is good for Parkinson's patients, and I've already had some training. I went to the gym on the way home today and talked to the Sensei about giving me some private lessons two days a week for 30 minutes to help me build my balance and stamina again. And Dr. S said I need to do some weight bearing exercise, too, so I'll be getting back on the mini trampoline, too.

Today is a new beginning for me in a very real sense, and I thank God that I have been diagnosed early, so I have time to improve my health as much as I possibly can. I thank you all for your prayers.

Acid Reflux Still, Plus Procrastination????

The last few days have been relatively uneventful, so I haven't been posting. We enjoyed our Date Day, and the cane certainly made things easier to navigate than the walker did. My muscles had a good workout for the day, and I could tell it Saturday, but that's OK. The exercise is good for me, and getting out of the house is even better.

I'm still fighting the acid reflux, though. I can't seem to get it stopped, and my throat is definitely irritated. I've played around with the timing of my meds, eating some crackers when I take the pills, and I think that's going to be the right thing to do. I've also upped my water intake, as that is good for my throat. I've been experimenting with when to eat supper, too, in relation to taking that last Sinemet. Yesterday, I took the third one at 4:30PM and ate supper at 5:30. That seemed to work pretty well, as it gives me time to empty my stomach before I get sleepy at 8:00PM. Sometimes I can manage to stay awake later, but not always. But then I'm wide awake at 4:00 or 5:00AM in the morning. I've always been an early to bed, early to rise sort of person, so this is nothing new.

What is new, that I'm just now coming to terms with, is that I'm procrastinating on paying bills, and I really don't know why. I've been doing it for months now, even letting some credit cards get late charges. DH gets very upset with me, and I have no defense, because he's right. I have plenty of time to get it done, and spend way too much time on the computer. It just seems like every time I think about doing certain things, I talk myself out of it. I'm wondering if this isn't a sign of depression, as this is just not like me at all. Or maybe it's a PD symptom? Or maybe I've just gotten lazy!!

Starting Now to Work on Future Quality of Life

We had our Date Day today, spending a pleasant day going from one Estate Sale to another. We found what I think will be a few really good purchases, but we won't really know until we put them up for auction and see what they sell for.

We went to one sale that was right around the corner from the house I grew up in. It felt really odd being back in such a familiar neighborhood, but I'm glad we went. I told the fellow who was having the sale that I trick or treated at that house all through my childhood. We did buy a few things there, too. And we swung by my old home, just to see how it looked. My old street still looks pretty much as it did when I was a child, which is truly amazing, because this area of town has become run down over the years.

We had decided if we could not find an adjustable cane at a sale today, since we've been looking for one for several weeks, we would buy a new one on the way home. So now I have a cane, too! I searched the Internet and found Exercises for the Parkinson's Patient. Until I find out otherwise, I'm assuming my improvement means I do have Parkinson's, and I'm starting now to think about what I eat and what I can do physically to improve my quality of life for as long as possible.

Looking Forward to Doctor's Appt. Tomorrow!

I've been able to stay busy this last week, and the time has really flown by, thank goodness. I've had plenty of excercise, so the weakness in my legs is definitely not from lack of use from the extended illness I had with the colitis attack. And I'm off all the steroid capsules, too, which means I've only got two more pills to go and I'll be off all the colitis meds.

Tomorrow we find out the results of all the lab tests they ran on me this last week. We also find out if I have to have a repeat of the EMG tests, because the last doctor did not test any upper body areas. Since I do get trembly sometimes in my hands, I'm hoping he'll do the test again, even though it's certainly NOT a fun test. I've already told him I'd do it again in a heartbeat if he needs me to. He knows how uncomfortable the test is and is trying to spare me that, if possible, but I want whatever will give the most accurate diagnosis, discomfort or not.

I just hope tomorrow's appointment doesn't end up leaving me feeling disappointed that things are moving too slowly, the way last time's did. I really like this Neurologist, and I have full confidence in his abilities, so I'll just have to put my trust in God that he has led me to the right man.

I had my first experience with someone trying to help me when I didn't need their help tonight. I was getting ready to go down the steps at church, which means DH takes the walker and I hold on to the railing and carefully take one step at a time. One of the church ladies grabbed my free hand to help me, and she really was trying to insist on helping, even though I kept telling her I would be just fine. It surprised me that I found that very irritating. I must remember to ask if I can help someone, instead of assuming they need my help.

I Shopped at Wal-Mart Today!

I'm very pleased with myself today. I used my newfangled four-wheeled walker and was able to walk around for over 30 minutes without wearing totally out! I found a pair of shoes for Sunday that should give me more support than the ones I've been wearing, so I had to find a cart no one was using, in order to get back to checkout in the front of the store. I see why people put baskets on walkers now. Anyway, I put the walker in the cart and pushed it all up front. It's nowhere near as easy to walk holding onto a cart as it is to walk using the walker for support.

I used to do Tai Chi every morning before DH got up. I learned a short form that wasn't too fancy, but it was a good beginner workout. I've tried a couple of times, since my legs have been acting so weird, to see if I could still do any of the movements. It was pitiful. I couldn't even get started. So I tried again this morning. I still can't do it correctly, but if I slide my foot, instead of picking it up, I can go through a few of the first few positions. It's better than nothing, and I'll be trying it again in a few days.